Weight loss support with a spiritual element. I will keep you posted on my journey in the hopes that you will join me in becoming the person God wants you to be. Don't worry about being religious. Come as you are.




Friday, February 28, 2014

Are You Looking Back?

You know you're on the right track when you become uninterested in looking back.

Conversely, are you looking where you are going? Remember when we were clumsy kids people would tell us to watch where we were going? It was usually after we had fallen over something that was right in front of us.We weren't paying attention to where we were going.

If we don't know where we are going, we could end up somewhere else.
Was it Yogi Berra who said, "If you come to a fork in the road, take it"? I think it was. I always thought it was kind of funny.
If we don't know where we are going, any road will take us there.

We are like those beginning bowlers who need the bumper pads down the lane on each side so the ball doesn't go in the gutter aren't we?

Have you ever seen those pictures of a mountain scene where the mountains seem closer and less challenging to cross than they really were? Going through the mountains was a shorter distance than going around them however.

Here's to Leigh Costa over at Poonapalooza. She is facing a mountain right now and cannot go around it. She must go through it. Depression is an ugly thing that saps our energy and drains the emotions. Sometimes I think the admiration and all the attention can work against us. We look great to others and are an inspiration but don't "feel" it. Food was our drug of choice. Without that way to deal with our demons what do we do then? The cause of the depression must be addressed. If it is a chemical or hormonal imbalance then it must be treated medically. If it's a deep seated emotion that we can't get to, counseling is necessary.

We can be looking BACK but not know what we are looking FOR.

Ever been homesick? We are away from what we know and where we feel "right". I remember one girl my freshman year at Ball State University who was so homesick for her mother that she cried, threw fits, and talked to her mother on the phone because she was so miserable in this new environment. I was not homesick at all. There was one girl on our floor whose mother had grounded her to her room at BSU from wherever her hometown was. It was pretty funny. Then there was my roommate, Bertie, who was raised in a dysfunctional home by two parents with mental issues - one was clinically depressed and the other was bi-polar. They were a strict Baptist family and she came to college and didn't know why she had a period each month. She washed her hands until they bled. So guess who educated her about menstrual cycles - moi'. I thought it was an adventure. I wasn't on the farm anymore. I tend to be rather pragmatic and practical so all these emotional people didn't bother me at all - I just shook my head and did my thing. There was one girl from a wealthy family who had a boyfriend named Gary who treated her terribly and she would be crying on the phone talking to him. Jerk.

Leigh - this is an adventure and each day is another one where you have been blessed. Stop looking back. While those days brought you to where you are now they have no power to pull you back. You have been too busy on the adventure of your life.

You're going to be OK.


Thursday, February 27, 2014

What Gives?

I have felt like giving up before, how about you?
I have given in to my desire for food I didn't need, how about you?
When I give it all I've got, I feel better about myself and am confident about my future.

Giving up and giving in are both very easy to do. Taking the easy way out, however, robs us of the success that we long for. We make this choice each day. Some days, however, we really don't do anything really bad but really don't strain ourselves either. These days aren't total losses but aren't our best effort either. We can be learning and reflecting during those days I think. We can be convicted of our mediocrity and have that "I can do better than this" feeling. Those days come to us all. I know I have them when I am just kind of "blah" because I didn't sleep well or having a problem on my mind or dealing with aches and pains - you know the feeling.

Things are going pretty well. I am just going to have to wait until this thyroid things gets resolved. I am exercising 6 days a week and have done my plank challenge and a couple of balance exercises here at home. I am making good choices when I eat so that's about all I can do.

Are we giving it all we've got these days?



Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Setpoint Theory

Setpoint is another term thrown around a lot in the weight loss world. I agree with this guy. Our setpoint can be within a range depending on the lifestyle we have chosen.

I have told people at times when they are very small and are having trouble maintaining such a low weight that if they have to fight to stay there perhaps they have chosen a number that is too low for them. We can certainly go too low for health. Look at the models. Those clothes might as well be on a hanger.

How do we determine a healthy weight for us? The height and weight charts? The Army has to waive its weight requirements for my son Nathan due to his muscle. He is out of the weight range for his height. The muscle weighs more than fat argument works here but like this - if we would take a cubic foot of fat and a cubic foot of muscle the muscle would weigh more than the fat. I think Nathan is 17% body fat.

There are people who are at a normal weight and they don't even know it or care about it. They intuitively know when to eat and when to stop eating. They don't pay attention to what they eat. If pizza sounds good, that's what they have. If a salad sounds good, they have that. Many of them never weigh themselves. I am not anticipating being like that.

I think most of us know the weight that is right for us. It is not based on a chart. We have been at that weight, felt good, and looked good.

That's our setpoint.






Sunday, February 23, 2014

Is Giving Up An Option?

 Of course it is.

The biggest weakness in all of humanity is giving up — calling it quits, throwing in the towel. Only do things if they are important to you; forget the things that aren’t important to you. If they’re important to you, then pursue them until you succeed. No exceptions, ever.   -unknown

If it's important to us we make room for it; we plan around it so it is accomplished; we are focused.

Giving up says a few things possibly:

We aren't worth the effort.
It isn't important to us after all.
We haven't thought through the positive and/or negative consequences.
Nobody else cares, why should I?
We don't want to do it.
We would rather do something else.
Change takes longer than we thought, and the process is harder. (optimism bias)
"I wasn't sure that this would work in the first place. I tried it out—it didn't do that much good. As I guessed, this was kind of a waste of time!" (We provide the way out at the beginning)
I'm facing some unique challenges right now. It might be better if I just stopped and did this at a time when things weren't so crazy. (Is there such a time?)
We miss our comfort zone.
We want the results without having to do what it takes to cause those results. 

Real change takes real effort and it is hard work. The only part of this I enjoy is the results. The results have to be worth it. Why would anyone want to work for one or two years to achieve a goal that wasn't all that big of a deal after all. Nobody I know.

I have spent my adult life trying to achieve this goal and maintain it. If it wasn't worth it, I wouldn't keep trying. Who would? This is my third time losing my weight because I achieved my goal twice and then threw it away.

This must be a pretty big deal or I would have given up long ago.












Thursday, February 20, 2014

So Much For Flow And People Watching

I didn't like the body flow class. We started with these tai chi moves to warm up. We did balancing things which I am horrible at (shows I should be doing it I imagine), and it was pretty much all stretching and balancing. I will not make a point to go to that class again. I am thinking of working on balance here at home. I felt like a cow on crutches.

There was a distraction in the class. I tried not to stare at him too much but one of the students was a black man who wore black sweats and a black long sleeved shirt and black winter gloves. He had on a toboggan looking cap that was rolled around the bottom that went around his head over a black scarf. He had a chain hanging around his waist and this stainless still shark's tooth looking thing coming out of his lower lip in addition to other piercings. This is how he exercised. To each his own.

The body pump class led by the woman with little personality was really full. These were people who had probably worked all day and so the tone was completely different from the morning body pump class I took. It was more "stiff".

I went to the body pump class with the man I liked this morning. There was one woman there who talked a lot and laughed at her own comments which really weren't funny. She had something to say all the time so she was the center of attention. She wasn't annoying but needed to be noticed I guess.

I've noticed in both body pump classes how people drop their weights to show everybody how hard they just worked and were maxed out.

Do you like to people watch in your classes? Have you noticed anything interesting about exercising behaviors and group dynamics?

I had a root canal done today - $585. I will have a crown on that tooth done on March 5 - $730.

I will have step aerobics tomorrow morning and Saturday morning. It's all good. Take care.

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

My Sore Back

I went to a Body Pump class last night and made my lower back sore. It is always somewhat sore but this morning it is REALLY sore. I either used too much weight or did something incorrectly or both.

I am thinking of wearing one of those belts that fits tightly around the mid-section for support of the lower back. Have any of you done this or have any information about doing this? I know I see those belts hanging around for the men who lift really heavy amounts. My wimpy little weights would look like baby rattles to them. I have heard that it's not wise to use those belts because one can become dependent on them. If it prevents a sore lower back I am going to try it. I think the belts are to prevent hernias for the men.

This Body Pump class was at a different time than the other one so there was a different instructor. She came in and WOW! Talk about cut. I could see every muscle. She almost looked stringy with muscle. She didn't have much personality and chewed bubble gum and blew bubbles the whole time. She didn't give any encouragement. I am not running her down. She was nice but all business. I couldn't hear her very well. The man I had for the first class was all personality, very friendly, and shouted encouragement as the class progressed. He didn't have a mouth full of gum and he was very good at what he did. I watched the girl and she did do something I haven't been doing. At the top of a dead lift she really tucked in her butt. I could see this in the mirror behind her and, as I said, every muscle showed.

I can't go to my step aerobics class this morning because Historic Centerville is producing a book for our BiCentennial this year. They want a group picture of the board members taken at 10 a.m. and guess who is on the board?

I am going to go to a Body Flow class tonight. Flowing my body may be less painful than pumping it. Hope so. Be careful out there today. I am going to go take some pain pills.


Monday, February 17, 2014

How To Make WONDERFUL Greek Yogurt

I have been making my own Greek yogurt. You will think you are eating ice cream.

I doubled the following recipe because with the size pots I used I needed more liquid so the tip of the thermometer would be in the milk.

1/2 gallon milk - I used the organic, whole milk - you can however, just use whole milk.
2 - 3 Tbsp. plain yogurt
2 c. dry milk
8 - 10 qt. stock pot
4 - 5 qt. pot with lid
metal or plastic spoon
thermometer with clip
heating pad

Place larger pot on stove on high. Add milk to smaller pot. There should be enough water in the larger pot to come halfway up side of smaller pot. My smaller pot had handles on it that sat on the sides of the larger pot keeping the smaller pot in the right position. You are making a double boiler. Clip thermometer to inside of smaller pot with the tip covered in the milk. The burner should be on high and the milk should be stirred regularly. Bring the milk to 185 degrees and hold it there for 1/2 hour. Once 185 was reached I turned the heat down to about 7 and then to about 4 or 5 and that worked pretty well. My stove goes from 1 - 10 on the burner heat. Your stove may work differently. The timing begins when the milk reaches 185 degrees.

After 1/2 hour place the smaller pot with the milk in it in a sink of cold water with ice cubes to reduce the heat to 110 degrees. At this point add the yogurt and the dry milk and stir until thoroughly mixed. Set the pot on a heating pad on medium  for 7 hours, cover with the pot lid and a towel to keep it dark. After 7 hours you will have yogurt. There is one more step to make it Greek yogurt.

I line a colander with cheese cloth - make sure it drapes over the sides - I made it a couple layers thick. Pour the yogurt into the colander that has been suspended over a bowl to catch the whey. I bring the cheese cloth up around the yogurt and secure it with a rubber band. I place this in the refrigerator overnight, covered.

In the morning you will have wonderful Greek yogurt. I use my own fruits and flavorings. There are some NSA pie fillings and some sugar free jellies and all fruit ice cream toppings that are low carb. You could flavor with vanilla, honey, pure maple syrup, agave syrup, stevia or whatever suits your taste. I have saved some old yogurt containers with lids and put a heaping tablespoon of fruit in the bottom, then add yogurt. I add stevia when I eat the yogurt. I canned some apples last year and cooked them with some stevia and cinnamon and used that and I made a cranberry salad that was great in it. I am anxious to hear your ideas for the fruit part.

The whey can be used in baking. It can be used in place of buttermilk but will make things wetter.

If you try this let me know how it worked for you. This made almost 20 individual yogurt containers. You could just "make as you go" and keep the yogurt in a large container and try different ways to flavor it.

Enjoy!


Saturday, February 15, 2014

The Right Way To Fail

This is a complex subject. On the one hand everybody fails. On the other hand, it can become part of a cycle and we have our slogans ready for that. See this post from back in the day:

Slogans or Solutions

I read blogs of people who fail the same way over and over and over ad infinitum. I feel sorry for them because I know it is a defeated feeling. I have asked why they keep going back to what hasn't worked for them. I know it is about sticking to whatever method was chosen because there are people around who have lost with several different methods - they worked the plan. They stuck with it. I think the people who keep failing and are truly disturbed by it need to go to OA - they are past gluttony and sloth and into addiction.

My weight is fluctuating as much as 5 lb. from one day to the next. I am so thankful it has not caused the emotional eating that would have happened in the past. I am just going to have to wait until my thyroid situation is resolved. I went to a Body Pump class on Thursday and loved it. I will be doing that again. I am finishing up this post on Friday to be up on Saturday. Today I will be going to my step aerobics class and then I will be doing a session of the Ultimate Challenge. I am really getting better on the push ups. I am now doing 10 push ups that are getting closer and closer to what they should be. I do a 60 second wall sit, 3-30 second planks, 25 sit ups, 65 squats, 15 lunges, 40 crunches and some stretching. I can tell I am building some muscle. I am also sitting up straighter.

How many times did we fail learning to ride a bicycle? roller skates? tieing our shoes? playing any instrument? sports? Why didn't we let those failures defeat us? We really wanted the reward of success in those areas badly enough to stick with it. Failure can be a good thing if we know how to respond to it.

Be careful out there today.





Thursday, February 13, 2014

Storms

You can't calm the storm, so stop trying. What you can do is calm yourself.  The storm will pass.
- Timber Hawkeye

Exactly how does one calm oneself? Drinking, drugs, and a binge come to mind. These things don't solve anything do they? They just add another storm.

I've often wondered why I immediately think of overeating if I don't get good news at a weigh in. What in my pea brain makes me think that is a productive way to deal with anything? I must have made that connection way back in my childhood when eating was associated with love and/or comfort.

When our storms pass how much clean up is there to do? The storm passed and it would have passed whether we had decided to trash the house or whether we had decided to protect it.

I guess we all need some insurance don't we? How can we protect what we have worked so hard to achieve? Why on earth would someone take the time and put in the money for a nice house (or body) and then trash it or leave it unprotected? We can protect ourselves by keeping our environments safe. We wouldn't leave an electric heater near the drapes would we? Let's not keep trigger foods in the house either. I know it can sometimes be difficult with others in the house - try this - have an inviting bowl of fruit in the middle of the table and see if it's not eaten without passing it by for junk. Make them hunt for the junk as you gradually wean them off of it by buying less and less and less until they don't realize what you've done.

There will be storms but we shouldn't be the cause of them. If we ask our families for help by not having the junk around we might be surprised at their willingness to help. The storm doesn't have to be a Category 5 or a Level 3 emergency of our own doing. I know when we were little my Mom would get a package of donuts and a 6-pack of cokes on payday. When it was gone, it was gone. We couldn't afford anymore. With 4 kids you can imagine how long it lasted. If we are honest concerning the grocery shopping, the candy, cookies, cakes, and pies aren't really for the kids or the husband - it's stuff that we want and like.

Have you ever noticed that when we let one thing slip, it's easier to let other things slide? For example, we decide we are tired or not in the mood to exercise so we don't. In my case thinking of travel time and the time spent in the class I now have about 2 hours of time on my hands. I am not a naturally active, can't sit still type of person. Staying active is a part of my insurance policy (it costs extra). Those two hours go from burning calories and getting fit to having time on my hands in the house where the kitchen is. The hardest part of exercising is getting started at home or showing up at the gym. I notice hunger more when I have time on my hands to think about it. This day probably will not end well if it goes like other days like this go. Now I probably overeat and won't exercise again tomorrow because I will feel sluggish and depressed. 

Clouds and wind don't always mean there's a storm coming - maybe just a challenge. Let's not over react or be a drama queen. We can deal with these things without trashing everything.


Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Are You Bound?

Men are anxious to improve their circumstances, but
are unwilling to improve themselves. They, therefore,
remain bound.
As a Man Thinketh by James Allen.

I got this quote from Rebecca's blog. She and I have become good  friends and have even met for lunch! It's great to meet a blogging friend in person. Any of you ever done that?

When I visualize being bound it usually involves ropes and somebody being unable to move. However, a person can be bound to something that nobody but that person knows about.

Anxiety can take on a life of its own. We can start being anxious about being anxious over something.

Are we anxious about the next weigh in?
Are we anxious about the family reunion where all kinds of food will be available?
Are we anxious about getting through the weekend?
Are we anxious about getting into our clothes?

Why? It's not like there's anything new happening.

Aren't we anxious because we have failed so much in the past over these things? We are anticipating another failure rather than becoming resolute about overcoming it. We cower at the scales. We throw our control out the window when we get to the reunion. The stress over eating and drinking all weekend is just too much. We won't even talk about those clothes we would like to wear again.

We are so bound to eating that even before this meal is done that we wolfed down and didn't enjoy we are thinking about the next one and how long we have to wait and what we will have.

My Mom used to say somebody had the "bound to's" meaning determined and having already decided to do something. We talk about people being bound and determined.  Those who have experienced how wonderful it is to get to goal weight remember we were bound and determined; we had the bound to's. Today did not revolve around the "if's", "when's", and "maybe's".  Today was another bit of time that it was going to take to get where we were bound and determined to go.

If we fall into old behavior patterns (again) are we not bound to them? If a new behavior becomes a priority can we not be bound to that as well?

Are you changing your "bound to's?"



Sunday, February 9, 2014

Catch 22

"Yellow Rose" Jasmine has an interesting take on the Philip Seymour Hoffman death from heroine. Read the comments as well please.

He was found with the needle in his arm so it is reported that the overdose killed him. Heroine killed him. There is no safe level and everything would have been OK had he not taken too much. This was pretty much inevitable. It's a sad loss. We all know how tough it is to kick something like this. We have kept going back to food. He kept going back to heroine.

Now the whole issue of legalizing various drugs and substances is in the forefront again.

Russell Brand  seems pretty loony to me but I think he makes his case pretty well here. I don't agree with him but this is the position of those who support legalization. I don't see anywhere the mention of personal responsibility and accountability. There are consequences for behavior. When we separate consequences from behavior we will have a nation of fools. I know some people are more susceptible to addiction than others but we all have to do the same things to avoid or recover from addiction.

I am a conservative Christian so you know what my stance is going to be. I believe in boundaries for behavior that come from a source other than ourselves. When everybody does as he/she sees fit (Romans) we become slaves to evil. Light and darkness cannot exist together. If we have the light of Jesus Christ the darkness and evil of this world we call Satan must leave. When we go into a dark room and flip the light switch, the darkness leaves.

Philip Seymour Hoffman had his demons. We all have our demons. His demons killed him. I can have the victory over mine.





Saturday, February 8, 2014

The New Scales Are Here!

I am just going to start my weight chart over on the right. It should be accurate now.  If there are any wild fluctuations I will just have to deal with it.

I do think my thyroid is burning hot. I will just be sitting in my quilting room and start to sweat. Sometimes I just feel weak and "not right".

I wish my thyroid would just go ahead and burn itself out and I can take a pill to keep the hormone levels normal.


Friday, February 7, 2014

Good Article

Very good article

here on the muscle/fat discussion from a while back. There are good graphics and good explanations.

Thursday, February 6, 2014

Life Lessons

Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old, of the Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio .

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.
It is the most requested column I've ever written.

My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short – enjoy it.

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and family will.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Stay true to yourself.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye, but don't worry, God never blinks.

16.. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful. Clutter weighs you down in many ways.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19.. It's never too late to be happy. But it’s all up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative of dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. Accept what you already have, not what you need

42. The best is yet to come...

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."

Google It

I think this was on a list of over used and annoying popular phrases - anyway.

Google "Cotton Ball Diet" - we are in trouble folks. 

The mental and emotional weakness that doing this signals is breathtaking. The desperation that would make someone choose eating cotton balls soaked in juice over life is hard to wrap my brain around.

What is more alarming is that there was a time in my life when I would have done this. I am old enough now to be able to look back and see God's hand protecting me from myself in more than one circumstance.

We need to be in open communication with the youth in our families. Talk to them about these issues. Help them make choices based on reality rather than on false promises.

I just took the Sunday School kids to the nursing home last Sunday. As we walked around from room to room and sang "Jesus Loves Me" we were in a hall where almost every patient had a tracheotomy. There was one room where a woman had had some fingers and one of her legs amputated.

We talked in the hallway about diabetes and smoking.

There are examples all around us of people who are reaping what they sowed. Let's try not to be one of them.

I just said I wasn't going to post anymore today in my last post which was my second one for the day. I have no excuse. Be careful out there today.

Public Enemy No. 1

Are We Our Own Worst Enemy?

We all know the answer to that one don't we?

My sister at jensgyrations.blogspot.com alerted me to this article. She has a medical transcription business. She has a conservative political/humor/life in general type of blog.

This article is more of an add-on to the one I just published. I think you will get something from it.

Unless my sister finds something else for me, I am probably done posting for today :-)

Define "try"

I have seen a lot of encouraging sayings that read very much like this one does.

They always seem to me to provide a way out.

Trying or attempting or giving it a shot - you know what I mean. These efforts can be half-hearted and can be a part of that vicious cycle of eat/lose/overeat/gain/eat/lose - repeat.

We can say we tried it. We can say we gave it a shot. Were we serious at the outset or were we protecting ourselves from the reality of where we were in the vicious cycle?

These are encouraging words and they are meant to get us going but they seem somewhat of a "weasel" expression. We tried it but we don't need to feel like a failure because after all we tried it.

Am I being a wet blanket?

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

New Scales

This morning while entertaining the thought that my weight might be in the next digit I weighed 188.5 from the 180.5 I posted earlier in the week. No way. After using the bathroom I weighed 190 and 193 a few minutes ago. I have ordered some new scales.

If it's not the scales, it's my Grave's Disease (overactive thyroid) acting up. I have been having some symptoms of thyroid problems but if it's overactive I would think I would be losing. Perhaps it is burning itself out - beats me.

My emotions aren't going berserk on me thankfully. I had my usual small raisin bran muffin for breakfast and has some yogurt and a banana with some cashew butter on each bite for lunch. It's all good.


Monday, February 3, 2014

Advice

This made me wonder. What am I an expert on and how does one become an expert on anything?  It can be education, experience, and learning from those who know more about a topic than we do.

I should be an expert on losing weight. I certainly have spent enough time at it. I have educated myself; I certainly have the experience; I have read about how others have done it. So why am I still at it? So why haven't I reached and maintained my goal weight?

What if someone told me to go home after picking up some ice cream, cookies (for the kids of course), and a bag of candy. They also told me to lay around all day, drink sodas rather than water, and just eat whatever sounded good. Would I take that advice? Hopefully not. So why do we take that advice from ourselves? We advise ourselves to drink a bottle of wine which triggers the wanting of salty things, and lots of it. After a while we want something sweet to finish if off. 

If any of you quilt you may have seen feathers quilted on one. They are pretty challenging. I have watched videos, bought books, bought marking tools and stencils, watched others do it, seen it on many quilts and admired how well the feathers were done - but I kept chickening out. All that time and money put into making a quilt top could be compromised with poor quilting. You haven't lived until you've ripped out a bunch of stitching on a quilt that has the backing, the batting, and the top sandwiched together. What "might" happen was intimidating. I didn't want to take the chance.

One of these last quilts I just finished was a twin size and I decided that I was going to try feathers on the border. No way would I try it on the king size that's waiting to be sandwiched and pinned. You know what, it didn't turn out half bad. I'm rather proud of it and will be showing it to my quilt club at our meeting next Thursday.

Some things we just have to jump in and do. We can read all kinds of books on weight loss and health. We can read about exercise and what it does. We have to do it. It's easier said than done however and we know it. We self-sabotage. We latch on to the excuses and use them over and over. We rationalize what we do because we couldn't stand the hunger. It scares us. I have been thinking about this too. Why does hunger scare us?

It doesn't scare me like it used to but I will admit that when my stomach growls I get anxious. I do not understand that. Food is everywhere. If I miss lunch, it will be time to eat again in about 4 hours. What's the big deal? I am getting to the point of a growling stomach more often. This is a good thing.

I also had a thought yesterday while at Church. I had my usual raisin bran muffin before Church at about 6 a.m. or so. When I make them, I use 1/3 cup of batter for each muffin so they are not all that big. My stomach started growling in Church. It didn't bother me. There is no food in Church. Had I been home I would have made a bee line for the kitchen because for crying out loud my stomach growled.

Don't panic my dear readers. I made it home and had lunch. Close call.

Be careful out there today.