The irony of compulsive overeating is that it eliminates hunger and intensifies craving. OA
craving - an intense, urgent, or abnormal desire or longing.
Ever been hungry and didn't know what you wanted? A natural slim person waits until something sounds good. I go ahead and eat something even though I didn't really want that particular food. I was not particular. I would settle for "not it" rather than wait for "this hits the spot".
I remember my grandmother saying she craved the scrapings out of the bowl of grandpa's pipe. She was diagnosed with cancer a while after that. Isn't that weird? How could she have known that scraping the inside of the bowl of grandpa's pipe and eating that would satisfy this abnormal desire? Have you ever had a craving of this type or known someone who has? Our bodies are pretty amazing when we can determine things like this.
When we are eating compulsively we are never hungry physically because our cravings are leading us to eat outside of the bounds of "normal". We have it in our heads that this crazy eating will satisfy something that we are missing. We don't have to eat over anything. But we did. Some of us still do at times. It doesn't work but we keep trying it. Doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results = insanity according to Einstein. There is a classic piece of literature about a knight who fights imaginary, impossible battles - Don Quixote - I think who kept at it in this manner. He is idealistic and a romantic. I have never read it. This may not be a good example since I don't know if it supports my argument or not. It may end up illustrating to not give up and I'll do a different post (maybe) if it does.
Even if it's the not giving up thing - shouldn't we give up binge eating because of the results? Are the results what we hope to achieve by overeating? It's so easy to be logical about this when we are in control but then the urge to binge hits and we have to fight that battle again. Will we lose this next battle or see it coming and find a way to relax ourselves and win? I remember the feeling before a binge. It is almost an inner terror. It's a terror that is quieted with food, lots of food. We know how to quiet that terror because we have done it before. It works. The problem is that it is an imaginary terror. Another problem is that the terror is only quieted for a while. There needs to be a daily way to stay in control. We must find a way to claim victory for ourselves. We are so busy avoiding a binge that we forget to claim the victory.
Each choice we make should take us closer to our goals.
Would those of you who used to binge and no longer binge share the path you took for the benefit of those who are still fighting this battle? In my case, I just kept fighting. My binges became less severe and farther apart. I wanted to stop the binge eating so badly that I finally got it into my head to stop being self-destructive. I guess that came partly from achieving other things in my life that binge eating hindered as well. Binge eating hinders exercise; it hurts relationships; it is embarrassing; it hinders weight loss - nothing good comes from it.