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Monday, December 31, 2012


Remember to focus on the goals. We must not allow ourselves to be easily thrown off track. We have had enough of that.

I got this picture from my sister's blog - jensgyrations.blogspot.com - I don't know what I would do without her blog for my content.

Sweat Equity

Remember that sweat is our fat crying. Let's have an awesome year.

Need to Improve Yourself?

The Wheel of Life is a way to do some self-examination.

It's hard for me to place a value on some of the areas but it is a valuable exercise. Doing this exercise could help with any resolutions you may want to tackle.

A few ongoing resolutions of mine are:

1.  spending less time on the internet.

2.  be a better housekeeper.

3.  spend more time outside.

4.  be more productive.

5. reach my goal weight and maintain.

6. write an ebook of daily readings.

These are very poorly written goals because they don't meet the requirements of goal setting.

Goals should be:

under my control
have a time limit
be realistic

They are all realistic and under my control.

However, there is no time limit nor are they measureable.

1.  I will only spend one hour per day on the internet.
2.  I will clean house on Wednesdays each week.  (like the sixth Wednesday of each month - just kidding :-)
3.  I will spend 1/2 hour each day outside weather permitting.
4.  I will "make something right" when I go into a room. I will quit looking at things that need to be done and ignore them. I will do things like "take that empty flower pot to the greenhouse" or "get that cobweb I have been noticing for days".
5.  I will reach my goal weight of 165 pounds at a rate of 5 lb. per month - I will figure this out when I weigh myself on January 1.
6.  I will work on my ebook for 1/2 hour each day.

The only one that I'll probably follow through on is Number 5. I am planning on breaking the others pretty quickly but it sounds good. 

How about you?

Sunday, December 30, 2012

As 2013 Begins

We can't out exercise a poor diet. Don't even think about it.

Be careful out there today.

A Must Read


We physicians with all our training, knowledge and authority often acquire a rather large ego that tends to make it difficult to admit we are wrong. So, here it is. I freely admit to being wrong. As a heart surgeon with 25 years experience and having performed over 5,000 open-heart surgeries, today is my day to right the wrong with medical and scientific fact.

I trained for many years with other prominent physicians labeled “opinion makers.” Bombarded with scientific literature, continually attending education seminars, we opinion makers insisted heart disease resulted from the simple fact of elevated blood cholesterol.

The only accepted therapy was prescribing medications to lower cholesterol and a diet that severely restricted fat intake. The latter of course we insisted would lower cholesterol and heart disease. Deviations from these recommendations were considered heresy and could quite possibly result in malpractice.

It Is Not Working!

These recommendations are no longer scientifically or morally defensible. The discovery a few years ago that inflammation in the artery wall is the real cause of heart disease is slowly leading to a paradigm shift in how heart disease and other chronic ailments will be treated.

The long-established dietary recommendations have created epidemics of obesity and diabetes, the consequences of which dwarf any historical plague in terms of mortality, human suffering and dire economic consequences.

Despite the fact that 25% of the population takes expensive statin medications and despite the fact we have reduced the fat content of our diets, more Americans will die this year of heart disease than ever before.

Statistics from the American Heart Association show that 75 million Americans currently suffer from heart disease, 20 million have diabetes and 57 million have pre-diabetes. These disorders are affecting younger and younger people in greater numbers every year.

Simply stated, without inflammation being present in the body, there is no way that cholesterol would accumulate in the wall of the blood vessel and cause heart disease and strokes. Without inflammation, cholesterol would move freely throughout the body as nature intended. It is inflammation that causes cholesterol to become trapped.

Inflammation is not complicated — it is quite simply your body’s natural defense to a foreign invader such as a bacteria, toxin or virus. The cycle of inflammation is perfect in how it protects your body from these bacterial and viral invaders. However, if we chronically expose the body to injury by toxins or foods the human body was never designed to process, a condition occurs called chronic inflammation. Chronic inflammation is just as harmful as acute inflammation is beneficial.

What thoughtful person would willfully expose himself repeatedly to foods or other substances that are known to cause injury to the body? Well, smokers perhaps, but at least they made that choice willfully.

The rest of us have simply followed the recommended mainstream diet that is low in fat and high in polyunsaturated fats and carbohydrates, not knowing we were causing repeated injury to our blood vessels. This repeated injury creates chronic inflammation leading to heart disease, stroke, diabetes and obesity.

Let me repeat that: The injury and inflammation in our blood vessels is caused by the low fat diet recommended for years by mainstream medicine.

What are the biggest culprits of chronic inflammation? Quite simply, they are the overload of simple, highly processed carbohydrates (sugar, flour and all the products made from them) and the excess consumption of omega-6 vegetable oils like soybean, corn and sunflower that are found in many processed foods.

Take a moment to visualize rubbing a stiff brush repeatedly over soft skin until it becomes quite red and nearly bleeding. You kept this up several times a day, every day for five years. If you could tolerate this painful brushing, you would have a bleeding, swollen infected area that became worse with each repeated injury. This is a good way to visualize the inflammatory process that could be going on in your body right now.

Regardless of where the inflammatory process occurs, externally or internally, it is the same. I have peered inside thousands upon thousands of arteries. A diseased artery looks as if someone took a brush and scrubbed repeatedly against its wall. Several times a day, every day, the foods we eat create small injuries compounding into more injuries, causing the body to respond continuously and appropriately with inflammation.

While we savor the tantalizing taste of a sweet roll, our bodies respond alarmingly as if a foreign invader arrived declaring war. Foods loaded with sugars and simple carbohydrates, or processed with omega-6 oils for long shelf life have been the mainstay of the American diet for six decades. These foods have been slowly poisoning everyone.

How does eating a simple sweet roll create a cascade of inflammation to make you sick?

Imagine spilling syrup on your keyboard and you have a visual of what occurs inside the cell. When we consume simple carbohydrates such as sugar, blood sugar rises rapidly. In response, your pancreas secretes insulin whose primary purpose is to drive sugar into each cell where it is stored for energy. If the cell is full and does not need glucose, it is rejected to avoid extra sugar gumming up the works.

When your full cells reject the extra glucose, blood sugar rises producing more insulin and the glucose converts to stored fat.

What does all this have to do with inflammation? Blood sugar is controlled in a very narrow range. Extra sugar molecules attach to a variety of proteins that in turn injure the blood vessel wall. This repeated injury to the blood vessel wall sets off inflammation. When you spike your blood sugar level several times a day, every day, it is exactly like taking sandpaper to the inside of your delicate blood vessels.

While you may not be able to see it, rest assured it is there. I saw it in over 5,000 surgical patients spanning 25 years who all shared one common denominator — inflammation in their arteries.
Let’s get back to the sweet roll. That innocent looking goody not only contains sugars, it is baked in one of many omega-6 oils such as soybean. Chips and fries are soaked in soybean oil; processed foods are manufactured with omega-6 oils for longer shelf life. While omega-6’s are essential -they are part of every cell membrane controlling what goes in and out of the cell – they must be in the correct balance with omega-3’s.

If the balance shifts by consuming excessive omega-6, the cell membrane produces chemicals called cytokines that directly cause inflammation.

Today’s mainstream American diet has produced an extreme imbalance of these two fats. The ratio of imbalance ranges from 15:1 to as high as 30:1 in favor of omega-6. That’s a tremendous amount of cytokines causing inflammation. In today’s food environment, a 3:1 ratio would be optimal and healthy.

To make matters worse, the excess weight you are carrying from eating these foods creates overloaded fat cells that pour out large quantities of pro-inflammatory chemicals that add to the injury caused by having high blood sugar. The process that began with a sweet roll turns into a vicious cycle over time that creates heart disease, high blood pressure, diabetes and finally, Alzheimer’s disease, as the inflammatory process continues unabated.

There is no escaping the fact that the more we consume prepared and processed foods, the more we trip the inflammation switch little by little each day. The human body cannot process, nor was it designed to consume, foods packed with sugars and soaked in omega-6 oils.

There is but one answer to quieting inflammation, and that is returning to foods closer to their natural state. To build muscle, eat more protein. Choose carbohydrates that are very complex such as colorful fruits and vegetables. Cut down on or eliminate inflammation- causing omega-6 fats like corn and soybean oil and the processed foods that are made from them.

One tablespoon of corn oil contains 7,280 mg of omega-6; soybean contains 6,940 mg. Instead, use olive oil or butter from grass-fed beef.

Animal fats contain less than 20% omega-6 and are much less likely to cause inflammation than the supposedly healthy oils labeled polyunsaturated. Forget the “science” that has been drummed into your head for decades. The science that saturated fat alone causes heart disease is non-existent. The science that saturated fat raises blood cholesterol is also very weak. Since we now know that cholesterol is not the cause of heart disease, the concern about saturated fat is even more absurd today.

The cholesterol theory led to the no-fat, low-fat recommendations that in turn created the very foods now causing an epidemic of inflammation. Mainstream medicine made a terrible mistake when it advised people to avoid saturated fat in favor of foods high in omega-6 fats. We now have an epidemic of arterial inflammation leading to heart disease and other silent killers.

What you can do is choose whole foods your grandmother served and not those your mom turned to as grocery store aisles filled with manufactured foods. By eliminating inflammatory foods and adding essential nutrients from fresh unprocessed food, you will reverse years of damage in your arteries and throughout your body from consuming the typical American diet.

Dr. Dwight Lundell is the past Chief of Staff and Chief of Surgery at Banner Heart Hospital , Mesa , AZ. His private practice, Cardiac Care Center was in Mesa, AZ. Recently Dr. Lundell left surgery to focus on the nutritional treatment of heart disease. He is the founder of Healthy Humans Foundation that promotes human health with a focus on helping large corporations promote wellness.

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The bolded areas are from me. This information was given to me by my sister: jensgyrations.blogspot.com - I am not pushing any products but this last paragraph was a part of the article so I kept it since I am using the doctor's information.

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Getting Prepped

After the thing with my friends last night I went to the grocery store. I bought a rotisserie chicken. This morning I took the meat off the carcass (HATE that job) and am simmering the bones, skin, etc., in the crock pot. This evening I will use my slotted spoon to get all the "stuff" out of the broth, cool it, put it in the fridge so I can skim off the fat in the morning and make a wonderful chicken vegetable soup. I will simmer the broth, chicken, most of a stalk of celery, most of a bag of carrots, and onion. I am up for suggestions - what else would you add that is not a carb food? I am thinking maybe some lentils or quinoa. Though they are a carb I think their glycemic index is pretty low.

I also got all the fixins' for salads ready. I have stopped using lettuce as it goes bad too quickly for the greens and use all spinach - it lasts longer. Lettuce really doesn't have much nutrition in it as I understand. I also have these storage units from Tupperware that have vents in them so as to release the gasses that cause vegetables to spoil more quickly. There are also ridges in the bottom that keep vegetables from sitting in moisture. I recommend them. The largest Tupperware container has the lettuce, broccoli, celery, and carrots in it. I have a separate bowl with green onions and red/yellow/green bell peppers in it so I can use it in my salads and they can also be used in scrambled eggs. If you go to Tupperware's web site please order through Cris Floyd. I think she is still a distributor and she is my hairdresser. Great gal.

I bought a nice roast as well - $13!!!!! The price almost scared me away but we will get several meals out of it. If I get to our local Meijer at about 10 am they have marked all the meats down that are dated that day 20%. I usually stock up then and either bring it home and freeze it or cook it.

Be careful out there today.

Where Do You Hurt?


is associated with obesity. This does seem like a no brainer to some extent. However it did get me to thinking about my own pains. Maybe you can identify.

I remember when I was at my heaviest after walking a while the arch in my right foot would fall or do something and I would absolutely be limping from the pain. That doesn't happen anymore.

I have lower back pain but then I think that is pretty common even in the slim to some extent. My knees hurt sometimes when I am exercising regularly but that clears up when I can't get exercise in regularly.

Did you know that every pound lost takes 4 pounds of pressure off of the knees? Read the full article here.

What pains do you have and do you feel they are exacerbated by extra weight? If you have lost a significant amount, have you noticed a lessening of any pains?

Last night was the last Christmas function for the year. Four friends and myself ate out and exchanged gifts. We do this every year. I had herb crusted cod, a salad (gave croutons to one of the friends), I replaced the potato with hot vegetables, had no bread. I did have some decaf coffee with kahlua for dessert. I am back on my game but remember back when I said I would be in the next digit for the new year? Scratch that.

Be careful out there today.

Don't Understand This

Competitive Eating still puzzles me.

After eating 8,610 calories anyone would be miserable for quite some time. This would also be quite a strain on the heart and the digestive system.

Just don't get it.

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Games We Play

I wonder how many times I have played this mind game. Too many to count.

Notice how we used to make it virtuous in our minds to eat all the junk so it wouldn't be there to tempt us. We threw it in our bodies rather than in the trash where it belonged. I can see now that I was just trying to feel OK about the overeating.

Food does not have to be eaten just because it is there.

How much produce have we thrown out? I have thrown out more slimy lettuce, mushy peppers, carrots with growth on them, and celery that was limp than I have eaten. How about you?

Why are we horrified at the thought of throwing out some candy or other junk? That just wouldn't be right.

I have one last Christmas dinner this evening at  my cousin's house. It's a great time but my New Year starts in the morning as we don't celebrate New Year's. We don't even stay up long enough to ring in the new year. We are such geezers. I will weigh on New Year's Day however and get started on these last 20 pounds or so.  I am not going to see how much I can eat until then or eat all the junk in the house so it won't be there to tempt me but I will be paying more attention to doing what has to be done

Be careful out there today.

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Another One In The Books

We had a wonderful Christmas yesterday and I hope you did as well. It's nice for it to be over for another year and take a rest. We went to my Mom's first at noon and then Duane's sister's at 4 so it was a big day. I made several of my gifts this year. My niece and her daughter made me a gazing ball out of a bowling ball. They got the idea from Pinterest to take a bowling ball and glue pennies all over it. It is supposed to keep slugs away and keep hydrangeas blooming blue due to the copper in the pennies. Those kinds of gifts mean so much because I know as I make something for someone else I have that person in mind and now every time I see that gazing ball in my yard I will think of Farrah and Hailie.

I made a tote bag and put an apron in it that I made for my sister-in-law Marilyn who enjoys cooking. I need to make an apron for myself. How many times have I started cooking with good clothes on and gotten a grease spot on a top that I really like? Several.

I made tote bags for my sister Jenny and my cousin Sharon who lives in Florida. I have been making her something at Christmas now that we have found each other again and started exchanging pictures and letters. The tote bag is easy to mail. She knitted me some house slippers that I really love. They are so warm and fit great. I am going to tell her to make me another pair for next Christmas as I will probably have these worn out.

I made my nephew a coverlet that fits over a card table and makes it into a playhouse. There is a mailbox, windows with curtains, and a door. It's really cute if I do say so myself.  I put a Christmas card in the mailbox for him. He is 4 so he should get a lot of good out of it along with his little sister Sydney.

Today we are under a blizzard warning. I just a call to hang on before starting the ATM route because banks will probably be closing early and the roads are horrendous. I love being snowed in (as long as we don't lose power). I will be sewing most of the day. I am now working on a quilt I need to finish up from a class I took. Two other sisters-in law loved the apron I made for Marilyn so between finishing quilt projects I will be making them aprons. I will then have nieces, my sister, and others so I imagine I have gotten something started. One can be made in an afternoon, takes only 5 fat quarters so I figure I can finish a project, make an apron, finish a project, make an apron and on and on until I get one for those who want one.

I have a great family on both sides. My Mom who is 86 stayed here last night. She will probably be here again tonight due to the blizzard. She has a sister on life support in a hospital in Indianapolis. If Mom loses that sister it will be the fourth one and the second one within a year. I think the last sister's death helped bring on her last TIA so if we lose this sister I don't want her to be alone if she has another mini-stroke. There were 6 girls and there will only be Mom and one sister left. Life goes on.

Make sure your family knows you love them.

Monday, December 24, 2012

Your Own Valuation

From December 22 - Around The Year With Emmet Fox

The world will take you at your own valuation. Your body will take you at your own valuation. Your business will take you at your own valuation; for the value that you really put upon yourself is the one that manifests.

Emmet Fox uses the word "manifest" a lot. He maintains that thoughts are things, they create vibrations, and what "manifests" in our lives is the result of our thoughts and beliefs. It's hard to argue with that.

When we manifest obesity, Emmet Fox would tell us that that is the value we place on ourselves. We are obese because we think and believe ourselves obese. This is what the world sees and takes us at our word so to speak. The successful business people I see usually look fit and trim.

When we start manifesting health and wellness through eating and exercise habits the body has to respond and take us at our word which manifests out of thought. Our thought life is important.

- and what you really believe, that you will demonstrate.

What will we manifest in 2013?

This is from another of Emmet Fox's books - The Beatitudes

If you want material prosperity, you must first think prosperity thoughts and then make a habit of doing so, for the thing that keeps most people poor is the sheer habit of poverty thinking. If you want congenial companionship, if you want to be loved,  you must first think thoughts of love and good will. Like begets like, another way of stating the Great Law, which means that as a man soweth in his unseen thoughts, so shall he reap in that which is seen. "All things work together for good to those who love good", and to love good means to occupy oneself with thoughts of good.

Again, what will we manifest in 2013?

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Holiday Appetites

Rebecca has a very thought-provoking post here. I know some of you are not people of faith but the thought here can still speak to you as well.

I love the thought:

Whatever we feed will live to tempt us another day.
By the way, the FIRST "thieving rationalization" is 
"it is just until....."
as if today doesn't really count or that we will deal with the issue later.
"Today always counts," she writes.
"If we fail to deal with issues today, they will deal with us tomorrow."

What are we really feeding when we overeat or eat poorly? We are feeding the temptation to continue.

If we don't make the choice to deal with our issues around food and eating today while we still have that choice, we could be dealing with diabetes or heart problems where there will be no choice but to deal with them.

"it is just until"  what? After that we can always repeat this rationalization. Indefinitely? No, it's not indefinite; we will eventually have to pay the piper, the chickens will come home to roost, and all that.

Today always counts. We must put these bad habits to death, we must. Without being fed, they will die.

Be careful out there today.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Breaking Laws

***"We must reject the idea that every time a law's broken, society is guilty rather than the lawbreaker. It is time to restore the American precept that each individual is accountable for his actions." Ronald Reagan

This statement can be applied to so many areas of our lives and the state of our nation.

It can be as common as the child who is not held accountable and made to bear the consequences of bad behavior or as big as a nation that cannot buckle down and correct poor spending habits. It can be as controversial as the criminal whose past is scrutinized and then behavior excused based on that. Which is the better way to go? Excusing criminal behavior because of extenuating circumstances knowing that we cannot make everything "fair" in the grand scheme of things or setting boundaries for behavior that are uniformly applied so that people know what the consequences will be. We have adults among us who could have been better shaped as children had there been intervention at a younger age. What really burns me is the amount of money wasted and given away to countries that hate us and then we don't have the resources for programs that could save some of our youth from lives of crime. We can get into the war debate but war is as old as mankind. Do a google search on the amount of pork in the stimulus bill or the pork in this latest bill to help the victims of Sandy and it will make you sick. The kicker is that the people who are willing to make the tough decisions to correct the financial mess we are in are either voted out of office, not elected in the first place, or demonized.  Conservatives are the party that represents cutting back, restructuring, and changing social programs. Americans will have none of that. Go to YouTube and watch the Obamaphone lady rant. Democrats will have their permanent majority soon. They are very good at understanding human behavior and capitalizing on that. Give people things and you will get their vote. Be careful what you wish for.

Anyway - we can go ahead and eat the Christmas candy as long as we are willing to accept the consequences. Have the cookies and pie as long as the blood sugar spike is no surprise. Gain the 10 lbs. or more over the holidays but don't whine about it and lament that others can eat that stuff without gaining weight. We have a right to eat that stuff too don't we? The holiday will be ruined without eating until we have to get horizontal  to get comfortable.  We will feel left out if we don't get in line for the second helping.

There are also consequences for good food choices, wise choices for spending money, and deciding what our holidays will leave us with. We are accountable either way.  

There is a law concerning calories in/calories out. There is a law about BMR/muscle. There is the law about insulin/weight gain. There is a law about hydration. 

What laws are we willing to obey and what laws do we break and try to get away with it? If the scale catches us in the act, how do we accept the consequences?

"Food" for thought.

Be careful out there today.

Friday, December 21, 2012

And While I'm At It--

I am also going to start drinking my coffee black. I use half & half. I read about a serving being 2 TBSP. on the carton and I am sure I have about 1/4 cup in each mug. I know - loser. I probably have 4 or 5 mugs a day of my decaf so I am getting in a pretty decent amount of calories just from that. This is the only dairy I have. I have resigned myself to decaf coffee. It doesn't have the "body" of the real stuff but my heart is affected and will take spells of beating hard and fast - probably not a good thing so I am buying some flavored decaf coffees and drinking them black. I tried other things for creaming - whole milk which I didn't care for and almond milk which was worse - how do you do that Norma? blek :-)

I got home yesterday from a 12 1/2 hour day in the armored truck and our electricity was off due to high winds. It didn't come back on for about 3 hours. We have a wood stove so we were warm - just couldn't see too well in the candle light. Today I ran a route and the blowing snow was so bad in some areas that the white out conditions caused me to have to use the telephone poles to keep it between the ditches. A woman of lesser skill would have been in the ditch.

So I guess I am just "tidying up" a few areas I knew needed attention. I have been thinking about my New Year's Resolutions. I like to make them because the New Year just seems like a new start. I am for sure going to finish off these last 20 pounds. I am thinking about publishing an e-book of daily readings for Kindle's of some of my posts. If you have a favorite or two, would you let me know? I also have a behavior I want to address - EATING TOO FAST.

I am not going to use the "I am starting on January 1" mentality to give myself permission to overeat until then because "I am starting on January 1". I am still exercising and drinking water and sticking to low-carb but there have been a few indiscretions. I poured one of them down the sink. I paid $9 for that bottle of wine and threw out about $6 of it. Serves me right.

Allan (Almost Gastric Bypass) is starting a new challenge. I am a challenge drop out. I never finish them. I am just not good at following eating and dieting rules. If you respond to that framework, Allan will give you as much help as he can and as much as you deserve.

Be careful out there today.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Made A Decision

I poured out most of a bottle of wine last night. The reason? So I wouldn't drink it. I have decided to give up alcohol completely. I see nothing wrong with having a glass of wine in the evening, however, my compulsive/addictive/obsessive/whatever personality changes that to a bottle of wine in the evening pretty easily. Sometimes I stick to a glass but I am not above finishing off the bottle. I then end up eating things that don't help the cause but hinder it. It isn't worth it.

Today my cousin is coming over from Indianapolis to Richmond to do some Christmas shopping. We always look forward to spending the day going from shop to shop, buying gifts, and helping to set the economy aright. We will have lunch somewhere and our mothers, who are sisters, will have the day to visit. They are both in their 80's and it's getting more difficult for them to join us for lunch with walkers and canes and unsteady feet. There were 6 sisters and 3 of them are gone now.

I have been working extra and missing my morning aerobics class. I went to body sculpt class last night. I am missing aerobics this morning due to the shopping and will miss it Friday due to running the route. I will get to body sculpt again tomorrow evening. We just do the best we can at this time of year don't we?  Like pouring mostly full bottles of wine down the sink.

I do things like that when I get to the enough is enough point. I have blogged before about the year at Christmas before I retired students had given me fudge, cookies, candies, chocolate covered cherries, and so much more. On the way home from school that evening I stopped on main street in Centerville and threw all of it in a trash can. Didn't even take it home.

How about you? Do you do things like this?

Be careful out there today.

Sunday, December 16, 2012

It's All In Your Mind

The title statement is from "Around the Year With Emmet Fox". I like daily readings and there are three that I read each day. One is from C. S. Lewis, another from Overeaters Anonymous, and then Emmet Fox.

"Mind is cause, and experience is effect. If you do not like the experience or effect that you are getting, the obvious remedy is to alter the cause and then the effect will naturally alter too."

We create our lifestyles in our minds. Back in the days of the binge I remember thinking about eating and wanting to eat so badly. I knew I was going to binge but fought it. I would have that panic of a feeling and would just finally go ahead and binge so I could get it over with. This was all first in my mind.

Changing that was no easy task. There came a time when enough was enough. The reason the change is so hard is because of the emotional baggage. Our emotions can cause us to do things that we don't understand. The triggers are there but we can't seem to do the right thing. That neural pathway is well worn and we know the way to the binge and need very little help to trod that path once more.

The binge has served its purpose for me. I don't binge anymore and I can't tell you what purpose it served. It had to serve a purpose or I wouldn't have done it. 

Think back on a successful day. What is different about that day? Why was there no binge? Will you have a binge on January 1? Probably not. Why not?

The bingeless days probably find you busy and focused.So stay busy and focused.

The bingeless days probably had some exercise in them. So exercise whether you are in the mood or not.

The bingeless days probably had the right foods and water in them. So eat the right foods and get in the water.

The bingeless days probably had you devoting time to others rather than dwelling on yourself.  Do that too.

Change your lifestyle, You don't eat sugar anymore remember? If a binge is imminent, binge on fruits, vegetables, and lean meats. Eat almonds until they come out your ears. Drink water until you throw up. Believe me, it's a lot easier to stop eating almonds than M & M's.

Be careful out there today.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

A Political Read

This is political and has nothing at all to do with weight loss but is a great read.


Our December 31 Post and more

The Best of the Best

I think this is a good idea for our last post of the year. Why not pick out what you feel were your best efforts of the past year. Since all of us are such great bloggers - how about our 5 best (in our humble opinion)?

On to a more serious topic. 

The violence in our society has just been demonstrated once again. Liberals are already on their gun control rant. I understand that people have no use for repeating weapons but taking guns away from good people is not the way to solve this. Criminals will still have them. People must be able to defend themselves with the same level of force being using against them.

Would it be wiser to address violence and why people grow up learning to use weapons to solve problems? I would be quicker to blame Hollywood and video games than assault weapons. We are becoming a blood thirsty nation and people who watch violence and allow their kids to watch violence and saying it doesn't affect them are fools. At the very least, it desensitizes us. It doesn't even bother us to see the torture and killing. Shouldn't it bother us? We applaud Bruce Willis, Clint Eastwood, and Sylvester Stallone because they are the good guys and blood all over the place is OK if your cause is the right one. So kids watching this who are wronged at school or at the ballgame feel justified in using deadly force? If there was not a market for violence, it wouldn't be produced.

I just stopped following a blogger whose last post was on masturbation. He had practically nude women in the post. He would probably argue that it was art. He is a college professor. Does this not objectify, degrade, and demean women? Does this contribute to violence against women? Personal responsibility needs revisited. While he has every right to do this, should he? There are people with weak minds who have access to that. There are kids who are getting the wrong impression of women through posts like this.

None of us lives in a vacuum. What we do has ripple effects. Boundaries for behavior are a good thing. We need to set those boundaries ourselves. These can be the boundaries we set for eating, for expressing anger, for what we watch and listen to. If you have kids, be the parent and set the boundaries. They are young and can't separate what they see and hear from reality yet - that's what parents are for.

I grieve for the parents who have lost their child. I was thinking last night that many of them probably had the Christmas presents bought for a child they no longer have. I am a realist. It will happen again. Why? It's  not because of assault weapons.

Friday, December 14, 2012

It's Time

I haven't blogged for a while. It's so helpful to get things in print because as we write, we learn about ourselves as we tell others what's going on.

My thyroid acted up and that's why my weight has been fluctuating. After posting my last weight my weight went up 6 pounds in a short amount of time without a change of habits. I was back into the low 180's which does mess with my head but thankfully I was able to just accept the situation and continue. Yesterday I was back down to 178.5 which was encouraging just to see that digit after going back over 180 briefly. I had my thyroid tested and my TSH was .128 and it should be at least .4 so I have hyperthyroidism. I did have a small goiter for a time, read up on it, started taking kelp due to its high iodine content. The doctor could not find the goiter last time he checked. I was feeling kind of weird, my heart does this hard, fast beat periodically, and so this was a concern. I ran out of kelp and was reading the label before I bought more and the label read not to take kelp if one has hyperthyroidism so I didn't buy it. I have switched to decaf and don't eat a lot of salt because I do eat a lot of whole foods. I am sure I probably get more than I think I do because it is in everything it seems. It would seem that an overactive thyroid would cause weight loss rather than weight gain however.

The positive thing is that a short time of weight gain did not cause me to throw in the towel, go on a binge, stop drinking water, skip exercise as it would have done in the past. Why would anyone come this far and be this close to the goal and not finish up? I don't know. I have regained my weight twice. Leigh over at Poonapalooza spoke of this fear of maintenance. It is a real fear and one for which we must have a healthy respect. After people get used to us at our goal weights, will the accolades and the compliments stop? What will we talk about? We don't get a trophy for going across the finish line. When we get there and get used to it, will we think "Is this all there is"?

That number on the scale and that size we wear are the trophies we must cherish.

Be careful out there today.

Friday, November 30, 2012

Back to School

I thieved this from my sister's blog - jensgyrations.blogspot.com

***13 rules you did not learn in school:

Here are some basic rules that children should be learning in school, but unfortunately don’t. Not all of these have to do with academics.

I'm going to add my own thoughts to this and gear it toward weight loss.

Rule #1: Life is not fair. Get used to it. The average teen-ager uses the phrase, “It’s not fair” 8.6 times a day.

It's not fair for a child to get cancer; it's not fair for a soldier to die in the Middle East - and we cry about it not being fair that someone else can eat so much and we can't.  It isn't fair for kids to go to bed hungry and we cry that we can't overeat? Those hungry children would be thankful to have what the average American family scrapes into the garbage after a meal.  We get a little twinge of hunger and we are undone. These kids have stomachs that are swelled up from starvation.

Rule #2: The real world won’t care as much about your self-esteem as much as your school does. It’ll expect you to accomplish something before you feel good about yourself. This may come as a shock. Usually, when inflated self-esteem meets reality, kids complain it’s not fair.

Ah yes, the entitlement mentality. Many kids graduate from high school thinking everything they do is wonderful. We watch what we eat for 3 days and think we should have at least lost 20 lbs. because we were so awesome for 3 whole days. The whining really starts when weight loss slows to 1 or 2 pounds a week.

Rule #3: Sorry, you won’t make $40,000 a year right out of high school. And you won’t be a vice president or have a car phone either. You may even have to wear a uniform that doesn’t have a label.

We aren't going to be two sizes smaller after a week or two of dieting and exercise.

Rule #4: If you think your teacher is tough, wait until you get a boss. He doesn’t have tenure, so he tends to be a bit edgier. When you screw up, he’s not going to ask you how you feel about it.

We have a few bloggers that don't mince words and will call others out for just acting like they might someday if everything falls in line get serious about losing weight. There are a few who are very understanding and will make you feel OK about screwing up but does that help much? There are many who have charmed their way out of tight spots and been able to fool others but with weight loss there is progress or lack thereof to prove how much effort was invested. I remember the discouragement and depression associated with obesity.  If we weigh very much it is going to take maybe years to get it off. That is why the lifestyle change is so important. If you will begin with "I don't eat sugar" and drink at least 8 glasses of water a day and begin exercising you will begin to lose. The person who is hungry and has made this lifestyle change of "I don't eat sugar" will choose almonds, hard boiled eggs, or some lean meat. It doesn't mean hunger has to be endured. It does mean that when you make the next lifestyle change of cutting out the starches to a great extent you will feel so much better. Hunger is not the panic it was; hunger is not disturbing anymore. When you are truly hungry it is an empty, hollow feeling. Really think about lifestyle change - your life should last for quite some time hopefully. You didn't stop eating sugar until the weight was gone; you stopped eating sugar for the rest of your days. You are going to drink the water for the rest of your life and exercise as well. The weight will come off; it has to. There's no big rush. Relax.

Rule #5: Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your grand-parents had a different word of burger flipping. They called it “opportunity”. They weren’t embarrassed making minimum wage either. They would have been embarrassed to sit around talking about Kurt Cobain all weekend.

There are people who overcome. I have noticed that the truly great people in this world came from humble backgrounds and learned how to work for what they got. There is that same work ethic that gets many of us to the gym or out for a run. These people want better and go after it. They are self-reliant and accountable. "If it is to be, it's up to  me."

Rule #6: It’s not your parents’ fault. If you screw up, you are responsible. This is the flip side of “It’s my life,” and “You’re not the boss of me,” and other eloquent proclamations of your generation. When you turn 18, it’s on your dime. Don’t whine about it, or you’ll sound like a baby boomer.

A few days ago, I blogged about crutches. It applies here.

Rule #7: Your school may have done away with winners and losers. Life hasn’t. In some schools, they’ll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. Failing grades have been abolished and class valedictorians scrapped, lest anyone’s feelings be hurt. Effort is as important as results. This, of course, bears not the slightest resemblance to anything in real life.

Liberals have crippled education when they decided that teachers could not be in control of their classrooms. There were a few instances of discipline overdone and so we throw the baby out with the bathwater. What are teachers to do? Look at the dismal rates of graduation in many schools. The self is not something we find; it is something we create. I don't care if they are expressing themselves - what's to be gained from  expressing, "Look everybody I'm an idiot"? We need dress codes and discipline - and you know who complains the loudest?  Parents. Be a part of the solution. Get your kids ready for life by holding them accountable and expecting them to be good people - then when they get our age and gain some weight they will be able to take responsibility for it and do something about it without getting all emotional and playing the victim. Too many of us have gotten by with being a slacker. Are you, as the parent, in charge or are the kids?

Rule #8: Life is not divided into semesters, and you don’t get summers off. Not even Easter break. They expect you to show up every day. For eight hours. And you don’t get a new life every 10 weeks. It just goes on and on. While we’re at it, very few jobs are interesting in fostering your self-expression or helping you find yourself. Fewer still lead to self-realization.

We don't get time off from being healthy either.  Our basic food plan includes the weekends and holidays and vacations.

Rule #9: Television is not real life. Your life is not a sitcom. Your problems will not all be solved in 30 minutes, minus time for commercials. In real life, people actually have to leave the coffee shop to go to jobs. Your friends will not be as perky or pliable as Jennifer Aniston.

Everybody has problems. Some of these sitcoms are so mindless. They are promiscuous and it's funny and everything turns out OK.  The message sent about women is pretty negative. Do we want our daughters to live like this? Do we want our sons using others? Everything doesn't always work out in the end especially if we have been doing things (like overeating) that don't lead to where we want to go. We are so used to settling for what's easy rather than waiting for the best.

Rule #10: Be nice to nerds. You may end up working for them. We all could.

Some of the nicest people I have ever met are nerds. 
Rule #11: Smoking does not make you look cool. It makes you look moronic. Next time you’re out cruising, watch an 11-year-old with a butt in his mouth. That’s what you look like to anyone over 20. Ditto for “expressing yourself” with purple hair and/or pierced body parts.

Fat is not sexy either. Whether it's fair or not, it's more acceptable for men to be fat than women. I see married women out in public who are obese, wearing sweats and crocs, no make-up or even styled hair,  with kids. I have heard men on call-in talk shows express their disappointment in the way their wives have let themselves go.
Rule #12: You are not immortal. If you are under the impression that living fast, dying young and leaving a beautiful corpse is romantic, you obviously haven’t seen one of your peers at room temperature lately.

I don't know how to tie this in to weight so much as the immortal part. Everybody dies and many choose how they are going to die.

Rule #13: Enjoy your youth time while you can. Sure parents are a pain, school is a bother and life is depressing but someday you’ll realize how wonderful it was to be a kid. Maybe you should start now.

Have you noticed how time goes faster the older we get? See #12.

By Charles J. Sykes
Printed in San Diego Union Tribune
September 19, 1996

Tuesday, November 27, 2012


There are many kinds of obligations. There are obligations to pay our bills or take care of our kids. Obligations like these are a part of life and must be taken seriously.

Some obligations are self-imposed. We feel obligated to do something we would rather not do. We do some things out of social pressure - like inviting the whole family or people we don't really care for to a wedding or a party of some kind. Sometimes we have to keep the peace.

Some obligations are a source of stress. We don't want to forego making candy because we are expected to and because we have always done it and because Aunt so and so will be so disappointed.

We feel obligated to eat. We feel obligated to drink. We feel obligated to buy gifts and overspend.

I have noticed that people feel uncomfortable if they are given a gift and have not bought something for that person. We feel obligated to buy gifts for others if they give us a gift. Do people give gifts because they expect a gift in return? Have you ever tried to find out if someone was getting you a gift because if so, you needed to buy something for them? Sad, really.

I have known of families who have decided not to give gifts at all and relieve themselves of that pressure and expense. They just get together and have a meal and enjoy each other's company. I would think they would still get a gift for the children to open. How many times have we had to act like the gift was just great when we didn't feel that way? How many gifts have you and I re-gifted?

While I do enjoy giving and receiving gifts at Christmas I do think we have lost the Spirit of the holiday. My mother-in-law used to keep track of how much money she spent on each person so that it was fair. Kids count their gifts and are very aware of equal numbers among all of them.

Just remember we are not obligated to destroy what we have worked for during the holidays. Some things, like the gift thing, are a part of the celebrations. We need to rekindle the reason for the season I think. We don't need to feel obligated to self-destruct. We also don't need to let others sabotage us either.

Are you making any changes to the holiday season now that you are working toward health?

Be careful out there today.

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Sunday Thoughts

The November 25 daily reading from C. S. Lewis went like this:

Books for Grown-Ups

There is no need to be worried by facetious people who try to make the Christian hope of "heaven" ridiculous by saying they do not want "to spend eternity playing harps". The answer to such people is that if they cannot understand books written for grown-ups, they should not talk about them. All the scriptural imagery (harps, crowns, gold, etc.) is, of course, a merely symbolical attempt to express the inexpressible. Musical instruments are mentioned because for many people (not all) music is the thing known in the present life which most strongly suggests ecstasy and infinity. Crowns are mentioned to suggest the fact that those who are united with God in eternity share His splendour and power and joy. Gold is mentioned to suggest the timelessness of Heaven (gold does not rust) and the preciousness of it. People who take these symbols literally might as well think that when Christ told us to be like doves, He meant that we should lay eggs.

                                    -from Mere Christianity, C. S. Lewis

I have heard people say that they do not understand the Bible. This is true. Scripture tells us of a veil of understanding that is not lifted until there is a change of heart. Ask, Seek, Knock. Ask and it shall be given unto you, Seek and ye shall find, Knock and it will be opened. The Bible is rich with timeless truths that, if practiced, would solve all the problems of the world. The 10 Commandments and the Golden Rule are all we need to live by.

Have a blessed Sunday.

Saturday, November 24, 2012


I am participating in this Challenge. Want to join me?

I haven't been paying as close attention as I should be lately and need something to get me fired up again.

This challenge is 5 weeks long and must be entered by this evening. I like that the food is not prescribed for me and there is no calorie mandate - I will be doing my thing. I just have to log my food which I generally don't do but for this 5 week challenge I will make a point of it. Maybe I won't eat things I don't want to write down. The only tweak I will do is the vegetable at breakfast. I will be doubling up on vegetables at another meal for that one. I also don't usually have 3 fruits a day due to the carbs but will get a bag of small apples. There are raisins in my morning muffin and the trail mix I make so that will count as another fruit. I know on WW 1/2 a banana is a fruit so I will get in just under the line with the fruit.

There are small mini-challenges each week which will make it fun.

We are having Thanksgiving again today on the other side of the family. I am making 2 butterscotch pies, 2 chocolate pies, and baked beans (of which I will have none). I have to hustle this morning because I had to drive an armored truck yesterday and then had a service call so didn't get home until late. I did get my pie crusts made and baked so I have to do the fillings and meringue this morning as well as the baked beans before the event at 1 p.m. I am on call all day so I am hoping for no service calls.

Have a great day!

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Thanksgiving Day

Here we are!

That's Isaac on the left. He lives in Fort Wayne and does computer aided drafting. I am next. Duane is next. Nathan (can you tell he lifts weights?) is far right. I am going to use this picture for Christmas gifts. We  went to my sister's house today for Thanksgiving and had a nice, peaceful day and a great meal. That is her house in the back. What am I thankful for? Where do I start? Health, family, blessings too many to count, and peacefulness.  

I pray for those in the military who are away from their families during the holidays.

I pray for those who are struggling. I have just recently learned that one of the gals in my quilt group has just found out her daughter has cancer in her breasts and lower back and it is pretty serious. What have I to complain about?

I have just learned that the friend I pick up for Bible Study Fellowship has a friend who has just learned she has stage 3 ovarian cancer. What have I to complain about?

There are people who will go to bed hungry tonight. What have we done to lessen their pain? I have noticed that people use many excuses to avoid giving to worthy causes. I keep my giving local. The Salvation Army, The Red Cross, there is a local shelter for women/children who are victims of domestic violence, and there is a local shelter for homeless men. I have a friend who is very tight with her money. She keeps it for herself and I have noticed she says we should give to people HERE. Does it matter who is hungry or without shelter? So what if they live in a foreign country? We can give to USO which supports our troops.

Have you dropped some money in the Salvation Army red bucket yet?

I feel pretty strongly about giving. Money is just a thing. People are what's important.

Each of you is important to me and I am thankful that you read what I write. Take care.

We can't do everything but we can all do something.

I hope your Thanksgiving is truly thankful.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012


Well - rats. I usually make a new post when I get a thought I want to share and get it started then date it a few days hence so I have time to work on it some more. I evidently dated two for the same posting date. I hate when that happens :-)  Luckily these two were pretty much done. At least I hope there aren't any unfinished thoughts. I hope you are paying more attention than I did as I compose. Be careful out there today.

Start Over

I have had an epiphany when it comes to starting over.

I have always thought that starting over tomorrow meant today was a failure, a loss and tomorrow was going to be DIFFERENT from today.

What if today was about as good as it gets? The food, the water, and the exercising were right on. Life is going well because we have invested our time making the lives of others easier therefore contributing to our own peace.

Why don't we start that over tomorrow? Let's do today one more time. Tomorrow we can decide if it's worth repeating yet another time.

What say you?

The Enemy

I have treated my body like it was the enemy for most of my life. Something happens, there is a binge, and my body would pay for it. I took it out on my health. There were self-inflicted wounds to add to the ones that caused the binge in the first place. More wounds than I can remember.

Have you ever taken your anger/frustration out on the wrong person?

Lincoln said that the way to get rid of an enemy is to make a friend of him/her. What if I had wanted to be friends with this body that I live inside of rather than taking out my negative emotional life?

I have always been amazed at how much the body can take, how about you? Alcoholics, drug addicts, and overeaters place such demands on the body - the heart, lungs, brain, liver, joints, and every muscle in the body have had to fight for us when we didn't deserve it.

How do we treat an enemy? Do we ignore the enemy? Think about the enemy's demise? Do we do things that make life difficult for the enemy? What have our bodies done to deserve such treatment?

How do we treat a friend? Do we want what is best for our friends? Do we have positive thoughts about our friends? Do we look forward to good times with our friends? If someone was doing harm to your friend, would you step in and do something about it?

When a perfect stranger meets you for the first time does that person see your friend or your enemy? Scripture tells us that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. Shouldn't we fear trashing our home? Remember when you have fed a baby? Remember the love you communicated through the feeding of that child?

How about treating our bodies like our BFF?

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Who's The Boss?

Do you have a great boss? If you don't, have you ever had a good boss? What made that boss so good?

The best boss I ever had was my last principal before I retired. He brought out the best in others. He assumed that everyone was doing his/her best or at least wanted to do his/her best. When anyone was in a conversation with him, it didn't matter if you were a student, a janitor, a teacher, or a parent - you had his undivided attention. He always had time.

What kind of a boss are we when it comes to working out or following our plan for weight loss and health? Are these things important enough to get our undivided attention during that hour or so of working out? Is the food we choose to eat our best effort toward reaching our goals?

I am guessing many of you have or have had a bad boss. We don't have much respect for those people and drag our feet meeting deadlines and watch the clock because we can't wait to get out of our workplace. These bosses do not bring out the best in us.

What kind of a boss are you? Would you want to work for someone like you? Would you want to hire a person like you?

We are all the boss of us. What kind of a boss are you?

Friday, November 16, 2012


Nothing is more desirable than to be released of an affliction, but nothing is more frightening than to be divested of a crutch.   -James Baldwin

Is the fear of giving up a crutch keeping us from being released from our afflictions?

A crutch is only to be used for a brief period. Do we want to be on crutches for the rest of our lives? Shouldn't we want to get rid of them ASAP?

What crutches have you given up? What crutches do you hang on to?

I am addicted to sugar.
I am addicted to food.
I am addicted to eating.
I cannot exercise.
My family does not support me.
I am a stress eater.
I am too old.
My poor physical condition keeps me like I am.
Others can eat all they want and not gain an ounce, I bite my fingernails and gain 5 pounds.
I cannot pass up candy.
There is always junk in the break room.
My husband/wife expects me to sit down and eat with him/her.
I have to keep chips in the house for the kids.
I always make candy at Christmas.
I don't like water.
It was on sale.

Did I miss any?

Are there any compulsive overeaters who don't want to be free of the consequences of their disease? No one wants to suffer the effects of obesity and/or enslavement to food. But the real question is, "am I willing to give up the temporary oblivion food provides?" That crutch enabled me to hobble through life when nothing else seemed to help.    Nov. 9 OA Daily Reading

Be careful out there today.

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Fat Acceptance Bloggers

Fat Acceptance Bloggers

Here it is a little after 6 a.m. and I have to run the route today so I don't have time to expand upon the topic. I like waiting on your comments and answering each thought individually so it's all good.  After I run the route and have my  mammogram (ouch) and get some groceries I will be able to come home and add my thoughts.

This should set Norma off so I will have given her time to vent a bit :-)

NSV - I got into a 36C bra today down from a 38D. Women usually don't like this to happen but I am excited about it. Less for the mammogram to deal with. OK - stop Myra - guys read this.

Do you know any fat acceptance bloggers? What is typical on their blogs?

Check back this evening to read the discussion on this.

Be careful out there today.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

A Day In The Life of a Fat Cell

A Day In The Life Of A Fat Cell

This is interesting reading. I already knew a lot of it but we can always learn something new. I went to step aerobics this morning after having done body sculpt last night. The muscles were a little tired this morning but I kept up pretty well.  I had my raisin bran muffin before I left and a smoothie when I got home - almond milk, over-ripe banana, scoop whey protein powder, spoon of almond butter, chia seeds, milled flax meal, 1 packet stevia - very filling, very good.

I am sewing Christmas gifts at the present time so will be getting to that today.

I have read several times that one of the reasons many struggle to keep off weight that has been lost is that fat cells never die or decrease in number. They are just lurking to suck up any indiscretions with our eating. Forewarned is forearmed.

Building muscle is the answer to this in my opinion. Occasional indiscretions can be covered through a BMR that is higher due to muscle mass - plus just the activity of building muscle in itself burns many calories and there is even an afterburn. I have read that we continue to burn calories at a higher rate for up to 3 hours after the workout. What's not to like?

So how have you been treating your fat cells lately?

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Plan Your January 1 Post

I have been thinking about the posts that are sure to happen during the holidays.

Have you decided what your January 1, 2013 post will read?

Is it going to be a "starting over" post or a victory post?

"When we choose the path, we choose the destination."  -unknown

Our paths are decided upon each day. I have often just "gone with the flow" and let things happen to me rather than decided what was going to happen. I would exercise if I felt like it or there was time or whatever other reason/excuse popped into my head. Now I know pretty much how the exercise is going to look for the entire week. It's a part of my schedule.

I have also been thinking about (and dreading kind of) the overcrowding in the aerobics room after the first of the year. I am glad they are making the effort and I hope they continue but that's not how it goes. At the beginning of this year a group of friends came a couple times. One of them had those slip-on shoes that looked like a workout shoe but had the open back. They talked during class. One kept checking her cell phone. Annoying really.

I get 4 of my 8 glasses of water down in the morning. I have a bottle that holds 32 oz. and so I can pace myself. I don't have a guilt trip over the 10 or more glasses rule or the half my weight = ounces of water to be consumed rule. I also drink green tea and other teas. Sometimes I drink more water. I am just careful to get in the 8 glasses.

I used to keep track of my carbs until I got the hang of it and now I have no idea how many carbs I eat each day. I do know what to eat and what not to eat.

We are going to be choosing our paths regardless. What will yours and my destination look like based on our paths?

My January post will read that I am now in the 160's and looking forward to goal weight and maintenance. I weighed 175.5 the last time I weighed so 169.5 is not far away. I will be walking through some mine fields - Thanksgiving, Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, New Year's Eve, my birthday, getting together with friends for our annual dinner/gift exchange, and who knows what else will arise? 

Thankfully my lifestyle changes will carry me through. I don't eat sugar anymore. It doesn't depend on what I weigh or how I feel. It doesn't matter if I am at someone else's house or out for a meal. I don't eat sugar anymore.

I exercise 3 - 5 times a week. That also does not depend on what I weigh or how I feel. I exercise 3 - 5 times a week.

I drink 64 oz. of water a day - minimum. I just do. I take it with me. I start early in the day.

We can all do these things. We can choose our destination by choosing the path we take. Hopefully none of us is subconsciously planning on being the victim and preparing the time tested litany of reasons/excuses for having a disastrous holiday season.

If you are, you are looking at the storm with the same eyes you created it with.

Be careful out there today.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

A Few Words

I have been in a dry spell. It happens.

I weighed 175.5 last time I weighed. Four more pounds gone. I am just not even a weekly weigher but I will post when I am in the mood to get on the scales.

I have had a conflict with another person in my quilt group. I have told you about my quilt retreats and how much I enjoy them. This person and I usually go together and we had our plans made. Another person in our group found out at the last minute that she could go and I was so happy and thought "A" would be happy to change plans somewhat - NOT. The new person offered to drive but nothing doing. "A" accused me of demanding that she change plans. She said she was not going to "kiss ass" and I was taking over and yada, yada, yada.

We also arrived early at her house the morning we were to leave to drive to Camp Mack. The new gal and I were to follow "A". She was visibly angry when she opened the door. I did apologize for arriving early. She said we interrupted her rest time before leaving (cardiac patient and diabetic) and cut into her time with her husband before being gone for the weekend. 

She was mad so she had to vent all my trespasses in an email. She has been doing all this passive-aggressive stuff and I finally had enough and emailed her.

Here's one. At the quilt show on her way out a couple years ago she said I was poking her in the stomach and yelling at her that she needed to lose that big, fat belly. I have never touched her or yelled at her. I think her meds need adjusted. She told me she could work Friday or Saturday at the quilt show so I put her down for Friday. Another woman was willing to work on Friday but not Saturday so I asked "A" if she would switch and she agreed. She felt like I was pushing her around. I told her she should have said something and I would have figured something else out.

Here's another. She said every time I go to the quilt retreat there are problems. Get this. At the first quilt retreat I went to with her I didn't go to the dining hall for some of the meals. I was beginning my low-carb food plan and stayed at the lodge to quilt and had one of my Quest Protein Bars for the meal. She said the others wondered what my problem was. She said she told them I was on a diet. I don't really think anyone asked what my problem was but just inquired as to where I was. This was a problem? This one really burned my cookies (so to speak). I told her in my email that I would eat what I wanted. I would eat when I wanted. If this offended her or anyone else they would just have to offended. Eating in the dining hall is not mandatory. Those women would eat the junk snacks, watch the clock for meal times, and go over and eat full meals when there was no way they could have been hungry. Their choice. I am not doing that anymore. I am pretty touchy about comments on what and when I eat. Don't go there "A". She does need to lose her big, fat belly although I would never say that - she is a cardiac patient, is diabetic, and is obese (not to mention a retired nurse).

Another problem I caused. She was weary one evening in the lodge and was sitting on a couch and I jokingly said she needed a glass of wine and sit by the fire. She informed me that Camp Mack was smoke free and tobacco free (like I didn't know). I told her I was joking.

Another of my trespasses occurred when she came late to one of our meetings and I said, "at least you got here" meaning it was good to see her at the meeting even if a little late. She took that to mean that I pointed out that she was late to the group.

She said my behavior needed to change regarding group activities. I miss meetings and activities when I have to run the route. I told her if I only had to do the Indiana ATM's I had time to attend the meetings but when I have to do the whole route it is 300 miles and takes 8 hours. Is this her concern?

There are 3 quilt retreats a year at Camp Mack. She doesn't go to the February one so the new gal and I will go to that one and not the other two that "A" attends. She ended her email telling me she had a wonderful life and didn't have to find fulfillment at quilt retreats and was magnanimous enough to wish us well finding a quilt retreat that met our needs like we have empty lives and so we go to quilt retreats.

I won't even get started on our Mystery Quilt clues where she was overlooked, denied, and generally mistreated.

I joined in a conversation of which she was a part and shouldn't have butted in and kept on and whatever else I did that upset her apple cart.

People are great aren't they? Hope all of you have been well, are on your chosen plan, and making progress.

Monday, October 15, 2012

15 Diet Foods That Make You Fat

15 Diet Foods That Make You Fat

Sugar Tsunami

I have been pretty busy lately with Mom's illness and other commitments so haven't been spending as much time composing. I also have another quilt retreat Thursday - Saturday.  Things should slow down next week. Take care.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

- and the crowd goes wild :-)

I am now in the next digit (watch out Leigh and Rae Rae - here I come :-)

I think I have gotten myself into a mild state of ketosis.

Ketogenic Diets

I can tell because I have a slightly bad taste in my mouth which is what happened with Atkins when I tried it a few years ago. I was also tired and my breath could have peeled wallpaper. It has been very gradual as I do not go as extreme as Atkins does at the beginning.

This article does state that the body does adapt to burning fat for fuel. I guess I just don't see the need to be so uncomfortable getting there. We WANT to burn fat for fuel. That is why I sing the praises of low carb.

I was having trouble viewing my blog this morning - I kept getting the message that "no site was configured at this address" - I could view my comments and stats but not my blog. Any suggestions?

My mother was taken to the hospital Friday night. We think it was a TIA. This will be her second one. A family member called her and noticed her speech wasn't right and asked if she needed help. She said she did but couldn't think of the number to call so an ambulance was sent. Her speech has gradually improved and she doesn't stumble over words like she was Friday evening in the emergency room. She is having a carotid ultrasound tomorrow. The four of us kids have decided she should not live alone anymore. We just buried her sister. She has lost three of her sisters now and there is Mom and two more sisters left. Seems like we have several fellow bloggers with health concerns in the family. It is a source of comfort knowing that people we have never met personally are always ready with support and encouragement regardless of the situation.

Have a blessed Sunday.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

When Is The Meal Over?

From jensgyrations.blogspot.com

When we are punishing ourselves because we haven't been perfect we must eat and eat and eat until we have suffered enough. I remember doing that.

One who lives with rejection at home, at school, and elsewhere comes to believe that he/she falls far short. What do we have to do to feel like we are good enough?

My cue to stop eating used to be when it was gone. My cue to start eating was "it's time to eat". When on a binge, I had eaten until I was spent.  Things have changed.

I have always had trouble stopping and leaving food. I just use a smaller plate and smaller portions and a better quality of food. I still eat it all. I know about the right amount. I am able to wait more and more often for my stomach to growl but am not there yet on waiting every time to growl.

Gwen Shamblin of Weigh Down Workshop states that overeaters are often controllers and we must give up control of our food schedule when we wait for the growl. We don't know when we will growl so eating can become intermittent. We can manage things so that a growl comes around at about meal time if we would like to eat with the family. We can bypass a growl and continue to wait but she doesn't recommend doing that too much. If the stomach has growled, we are truly empty. It is easy to eat too fast and too much if we haven't gotten ourselves in control. Hunger is so threatening isn't it? I have often wondered why it bothers me so much to be hungry. Is it fatal? Will the food disappear? Food is everywhere. I heard of one person whose attitude if missing meal was, "I'll be eating in about 4 hours." I would have been a wreck in the past, how about you?

Gwen's point is that if we haven't waited for true hunger (the growl) how do we know where full is? I know some people just eat on a schedule and if the total calorie count is known then that works for them. I would think that a person counting calories (say 1200 - 1500) per day would be hungry at each meal. She also says we should eat exactly what we want. Most people would be afraid of actually going berserk with that kind of freedom. She did a video for one of her classes where she made chocolate the topic. At breakfast on her plate she had M & M's, Snickers bars, and other chocolates. She showed the same kind of thing at lunch and dinner. It did look kind of sickening.  Her point was that our bodies will yearn for healthy things, for what it needs. She also said we must eat slowly and stop at the first sign of comfortable fullness. I have to say that I was never able to do this. I don't set boundaries very well. I will say that now I truly want the good stuff. I prefer salads, apples, lean meats, nuts, my muffins, etc. I have eliminated sugar and most carbs. I could probably do it now because regardless I don't eat these things anymore. If I would binge (which I won't) it would be on something like almonds or those green seedless grapes. I don't crave those things so I can stop. Now that I don't crave carbs, I eat when I am hungry but don't make it to the growl each time.

I think that is why the approach should be different. The first thing I did was cut out sugar. I have always been one to exercise but that became more of a priority. I made it a point to get in at least 8 glasses of water per day. I counted carbs for a while but as soon as I got the hang of it I didn't bother with it anymore. I was losing weight without journaling, w/o counting calories or carbs or points, exercising, and drinking the water. I also made it a point to gradually eliminate other carbs such as breads, cereals, and other starchy carbs. I have now eliminated most dairy. If we have made the decision what NOT to eat what's left is truly enjoyable and we can eat until we are full - truly one of the benefits for me. Have you ever finished your meal and were still hungry?

How do you determine when it is time to eat?

Friday, October 12, 2012


Look at what we are capable of doing. One of my biggest regrets is not challenging myself physically while still young. I know it's never too late to start but these two girls have put in hours of practice and are probably still in school. Another thing - they started young before they knew that they couldn't do this so they went ahead and did it. Why do we have to watch kids around a swimming pool? They don't know they can't swim, they will just jump in.

A big part of our struggles to lose weight is the knowledge that we can fail and have done it many times in some cases. Each time we fail it leaves a memory; it makes the next failure a little easier and soon we have created a pattern. Let's begin to act "as if". You fill in the next few words.

I have spent much of my life taking the path of least resistance. I have been mediocre when I could have been great. I have been guilty of doing as little as possible and dragging my feet.

What if we put this level of commitment to excellence in everything we do? Can all of us find something at which we be excellent? Sure we can. It is an attitude.

These two girls had to first have the attitude that they were capable of doing something like this. They may not have considered getting to this level at the beginning and I am sure that they crashed and burned many times. They did not say it was too hard and give up. I wonder how many sprained wrists and ankles they have had or bruises. They have probably been practicing while others their age were sitting on the couch with their video games or watching a movie.

They chose to be excellent. All of us can be excellent each day. We owe it to ourselves to have an attitude that creates the foundation for excellence.

Yesterday I was considering skipping body sculpt but then I saw Rae Rae J and decided if she can do this so can I. We have to exercise whether we want to or not, eat right whether we feel like it or not, drink water when we would rather have something else and do this CONSISTENTLY. This is not a day or two here and a day or two there sort of thing. It takes the attitude of wanting to get healthy and strong and this attitude must carry us through the tough days and the tough situations. We don't want to trade our success for cake.

How's your attitude these days?

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Let's Move On

I have been reading on some blogs about finding out why we have become obese so we can move on. I say move on anyway.

Regardless of whether we know the why's and wherefore's we must still do the same things to lose weight.

Let's move on and be healthy while we are figuring out the why. I really think we already know why but some find comfort in using that as an excuse to spin their wheels.

As the weight comes off, we will be more secure in the new life we are creating and will just want to accept the past because we cannot change it and move on. It is what it is.

Here's a great song about "Movin' On". This is my kind of music. Enjoy.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Labels, Ours or Theirs

Lisa said this over at Allan's:

I don't think she really wants to lose anything. I think she wants to be KNOWN for wanting to lose weight. 

I thought that was pretty perceptive. Most of us probably know the blogger who was the topic of conversation. It really isn't important. We need to spend our time on the living.

Have you ever known anyone who lived up to a label? How much of our labels do we create ourselves?

Contributed By: Kim Davis, Educational Consultant 

“Labeling is a process of creating descriptors to identify persons who differ from the norm. Normal is a broad relative term. Everyone is different in some way from someone else” (Darrow and White).
“Labeling is definitive; once we say it then it holds meaning” (Namka).

How many labels do we use in a day without conscious thought? The student, the teacher, the therapist, or the principal are labels that conjure up images of who those people may be, what they look like and how they might act. What are the labels that might be applied to us? Would we like them? Do the labels describe every aspect of who we are? Are we more reluctant to claim some labels and not others? How do we feel when we are labeled and categorized?

The above is from the field of education, special education in particular.

This is a true story. A teacher was given her class list before school started and was told which children were highly intelligent. These children actually were not. They were average and somewhat below average. It was found these children achieved far above their supposed ability level because the teacher treated them differently. Why? She thought they were highly intelligent so she treated them as if they were highly intelligent and they lived up to her expectations. This also works in reverse sadly.

Another true story.
The long-term consequences of labeling a child like Hannah "smart" or "slow" are profound. In another classic study, Robert Rosenthal and Lenore Jacobson told teachers at an elementary school that some of their students had scored in the top 20% of a test designed to identify "academic bloomers"--students who were expected to enter a period of intense intellectual development over the following year. In fact, the students were selected randomly, and they performed no differently from their unselected peers on a genuine academic test. A year after convincing the teachers that some of their students were due to bloom, Rosenthal and Jacobson returned to the school and administered the same test. The results were astonishing among the younger children: the "bloomers," who were no different from their peers a year ago, now outperformed their unselected peers by 10-15 IQ points. The teachers fostered the intellectual development of the "bloomers," producing a self-fulfilling prophecy in which the students who were baselessly expected to bloom actually outperformed their peers.

We should not treat people as they are but as we expect them to be.

Have you ever had a label that you lived up to? My maiden name was Elsrod - Elsie the Cow was my nickname, my label. I lived up to it. The label made things worse. If you have children, do not tolerate name-calling please.

We are all trying to create a new label for ourselves. One that we can live up to. The ones we create ourselves are the best ones. Labels from others are even better. Think how we feel when someone comments with something thoughtful, encouraging, or gives us a compliment. Do we sometimes feel we don't deserve it? Sometimes it is a little intimidating because it can make us feel like the bar has been raised a little. Others admire us for what we write. They tell us about a good post. We want to be worthy of their words.

Great labels make for great people.

Take care.

Monday, October 8, 2012

Quilt Retreat

We left Thursday at 9 a.m. I had my usual Raisin Bran muffin for breakfast.  There are always refreshments at my Quilt Club meeting which we went to at 9:30 a.m. before hitting the road for a 3.5-hour drive to Archbold, Ohio where the Quilt Retreat was being held at Sauder Village. There were a few sweets and some fruit. I had one slice of a Mutzu apple (very good) and a sprig of green grapes. After our meeting many were going to a salad luncheon at a local church but Carol and I decided to get going and stop and eat on the way. We stopped at a Mexican Grill where I had a taco salad (no tortilla bowl). I did have a few chips and salsa there. I drank water. We arrived at our hotel and walked to a restaurant that was close for dinner. I had a piece of grilled cod, a small dinner salad, and a broccoli/cauliflower vegetable mix. I picked out the croutons on the salad and had water to drink. There were these huge yeast rolls brought to our table at dinner. It wasn't even a temptation but they were beautiful. Carol ate one of them and the other was left alone.

Friday. There was a continental breakfast included with  our hotel room. I put one of my Quest Nutrition Bars in my purse as a back-up just in case it was just sweet rolls and muffins which continental breakfasts often are. The area we visited first just had a crock-pot full of bread pudding (NO), bread for toasting and waffles to toast (NO), coffee cake/cookies/sweet rolls (NO). We walked around a corner and there were some cereals to choose from, and yogurts and fruits on ice. Better. I figured since I usually had a Raisin Bran muffin for breakfast a small bowl of Raisin Bran would be OK. I also had a bowl of citrus fruit (grapefruit/oranges) and some decaf coffee.

When my stomach growled I ate my Quest Nutrition Bar. Carol then got hungry and we went with two other gals for lunch and I had a salad. I did try something new at the salad bar. They had pickled hard boiled eggs. I have seen them many times and admired the pretty purple color but had not tasted them. I got two of them and thought they were pretty good. Supper was provided through a buffet. When I read the menu it read lasagna and vegetable lasagna with garlic bread. OH NO. I did have some grapes from the snack table that afternoon. I was mentally planning to just have salad and then get some dark chocolate covered almonds from the snack table for a protein but when I got there there were hot vegetables (carrots, green beans) in addition to the salad so instead of getting a salad plate at the beginning of the line I had someone pass me back a dinner plate which I filled with salad, green beans, and carrots. The desserts were nice but I have lost my taste for sweets.


Breakfast. Raisin Bran, Citrus Fruit

Lunch. Spinach Salad, Pulled pork.

Supper. Ham wrapped in bacon w/sweet potato, salad


Breakfast. Raisin Bran, Citrus

 There was a gyro buffet for lunch so I just had the lamb and chicken with the fixin's but without the bread and fruit cup for dessert (melons, grapes).

Quest Nutrition Bar on the ride home. (3.5 hours)

Supper - 2 Wasa crackers with almond butter and 1 square of dark chocolate.

Later I had some roasted almonds but I am like Leigh over at Poonapalooza - I can easily eat too many which means they have to go. My biggest problem is eating too much of the right things.

I have decided to wait until this next Sunday to weigh since I missed this morning and would like the week to settle back in to my routine. I fell a little short on the water and quilting is not exactly an aerobic activity. When I got home that was my first real urge to overeat. Didn't. After I had eaten Nathan came in with two pizzas. Had none.

Take care.