Now that Thanksgiving is over I have had some time to reflect on my behaviors. I got the water in every day - 64 oz. which is 8 cups of water. I also prayed for strength in the morning and then was thankful for it at night. I have tried not to overdo the water since my tendency is to overdo EVERYTHING. I consistently exercised. Last Thursday morning my manager said to get my DOT physical which has to be renewed every year so that I can drive the armored vehicles for ATM Solutions. I failed the test because of my blood pressure - kind of discouraging but I had eaten some salted nuts the night before and I have not been careful about caffeine. My BP was 180/108 - YIKES. So - I was thankful for the information and I have given up real coffee and no more salted nuts for me. I have to go back in 3 months and try again. To tell you the truth I wouldn't care if I never drive an armored vehicle again but I do care if I have a stroke. They weighed me. I haven't weighed myself in a long time and my weight was 202 - I think the last weight I reported to you was 203.5. This weight was in late morning and I found my work phone in my pocket that I forgot to take out so I may be in onederland as I sit here. I have an appointment on the 14th with my doctor to get my BP prescription renewed so I will report my weight again then.
One epiphany for me during this holiday was how I ate peacefully. It was different. I didn't realize I had anxiety even while I ate but now that I can eat peacefully without racing thoughts about weight, can I stop, how much should I eat, guilt feelings - you know the drill. Those thoughts in the back of my mind ruined the enjoyment of what I was eating in the past and I really didn't realize it at the time. In the past not only would I have overeaten at the meal but I would have eaten the rest of the evening because the day was already a bust. Then it would continue because after overeating to that extent it is hard to get back with the program.
I have been able to go up to using 10 lb. weights in my classes and feel pretty good about that.
My favorite part of the day is getting into my warm bed and talking to God a while before I fall asleep. The warmth and comfort is like the everlasting arms to me.
Did any of you notice new behaviors that have become your new normal during the holiday we just enjoyed?