The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins. ~Bob Moawad
Love, and love only, produces miracles. If you love your body when you're thin but hate it when you're not, then you love yourself conditionally, which is not love at all. If you can't love your body, you can't really love yourself.
What are you hating your body for? For being overweight? It didn't do this to you; you did this to it! You haven't been abused by your body; your body has been abused by you. And yet, unlike you, it has continued to hold up its side of the relationship. It has continued to function as best it can, even though you have made it harder. It has borne excess pounds, even though it has been a burden to do so. And it has continued to support you, even though you have often failed to support it.
Is it your body you hate, or its size? And since all negative emotions derive from fear, if you hate your body, you must fear something. What is that? Do you fear ridicule? Or is your deeper fear--one that overrides your fear of being overweight--a fear that you'll be punished if you try to "play big" in life? Again, what are you afraid of?
Do you actually hate your body at all? Or have you simply learned to hate it because others hurt you so much when you were thin?
Can you remember who the first person was who envied, hated, or judged your body? Do you remember the moment you looked at your body and made a quick decision to cover it up? Was the only way to feel you "belonged" in your family to eat as excessively as your parents and siblings did? Was the only way to feel loved in your family to be as overweight as they were? Were you considered hoity-toity or stuck-up if you sought a thinner, healthier body? Was there a particular person who either looked at you strangely or said something off-color when you were a child, making you feel shame at the thought of a beautiful body? At what point did you subconsciously decide that you didn't deserve to be thin?