One of the ways you love yourself is by permitting yourself to want what you want. One of the reasons people consume anything too much is because they don't consume other things enough. You tend to take in too much material substance when you are starving yourself of spiritual substance. Overeating is an act of spiritual starvation.
The sensual aspect of your body is a spiritual gift; experiencing it is part of the glory of being human. Deep down you want the experience of a waistline; you want the experience of a lighter body. You want the experience of self-love in its totality. It is not just your right but also your purpose on Earth to become the person you long to be. You don't long to be a victim; you long to be good, healthy, and creative. You long to feel the fun of a fit body and the joy of being able to run around with your children and grandchildren. You long to have a non-obsessive relationship with food, and you long to look in the mirror and like what you see.
No one but you is denying yourself these experiences, and your facing that fact--that you are cruel to you, that you are withholding from you, that you are harming you--is both horrifying and liberating to look squarely in the eye. Have you bludgeoned yourself enough yet, do you think? Have you figured out yet what you did to deserve this? And are you ready for a miracle?
I have an Oswald Chambers Devotional Bible - today's reading is very good.
What Are You Haunted By?
What are you haunted by? You will say--By nothing, but we are all haunted by something, generally by ourselves, or, if we are Christians, by our experience. The psalmist says we are to be haunted by God. The abiding consciousness of the life is to be God, not thinking about Him. The whole of our life inside and out is to be absolutely haunted by the presence of God. A child's consciousness is so mother-haunted that although the child is not consciously thinking of its mother, yet when calamity arises, the relationship that abides is that of the mother. So we are to live and move and have our being in God, to look at everything in relation to God, because the abiding consciousness of God pushes itself to the front all the time.
If we are haunted by God, nothing else can get in, no cares, no tribulation, no anxieties. We see now why our Lord so emphasized the sin of worry. How can we dare be so utterly unbelieving when God is round about us? To be haunted by God is to have an effective barricade against all the onslaughts of the enemy.