Well - today's my birthday. I received many birthday wishes. I have not blogged for a few days due to computer problems. We are back up and running so I need to get something going here. I have begun working on some Christmas gifts today.
Spiritually, your wanting to lose weight is not a desire to become less of yourself, but rather a desire to become more of your true self.. You are a being both created by love and at home in love. Your deepest desire is not for food, but for the experience of home. Your deepest desire is not for food, but for love.
As an aside - God is love. I was looking around on the internet for t-shirts and came upon a site that had some awful shirts in my opinion. I have read in a place or two when in a discussion about God that Jesus is an SOB and that Mary is a whore. Reading that evoked a sinking reaction in my gut. Jesus was begotten not conceived. John 3:16 - for God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son---Man was originally created to live eternally in communion with God. Sin changed that. The only way man could be forgiven was by a perfect sacrifice. God cannot look on sin without judging it. There is no man without sin so God had to do it. He took on flesh as Jesus so that He could be the perfect sacrifice. Before Jesus, lambs without blemish were sacrificed as atonement for sin. Jesus is called the lamb of God and after His crucifixion, no more animals were sacrificed. I am learning not to be drawn into arguments where faith is concerned. Those people only want to argue, not learn. They have all their retorts about fairy tales and superstitions. They know very little about scripture. The scrolls of the Bible are on display in the Holy Land. The stories in the Bible have much deeper meanings that must be studied. The books of Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John were written by disciples who were with Jesus during His time on earth. Miracles, the supernatural, and faith are important parts of Christianity. If we teach our kids that their ancestors crawled out of a pool of goop, how can we expect them to value themselves or others? I always wondered if that was true, how and why male and female? If it's just evolution that we have become so advanced does it follow that given enough time turkeys will be able to do math? If we descended from apes, why are there still apes? If there was a big bang what banged? Where did the stuff come from that exploded? Doesn't there have to be something eternal to explain how things began? OK - where was I?
Every moment of unconscious eating is a moment when you are starving from a lack of healthy self-love, and struggling to find it elsewhere. As your connection to love is repaired, you'll be freed from your compulsion to seek love from a source that only dishes out self-hate. It doesn't make you less powerful to acknowledge a Higher Power; it makes you more powerful, because it gives you access to the power of faith.
Faith is an aspect of consciousness; there is no such thing as a faithless person. Right now, you have plenty of faith. . .faith that you'll eat too much, no matter what you do. Faith that you'll never lose the weight and really keep it off. Faith that overeating is your only true friend, even though you know it's anything but your friend. The real question is, do you have more faith in the power of your problem or in the power of a miracle to solve it?