Weight loss support with a spiritual element. I will keep you posted on my journey in the hopes that you will join me in becoming the person God wants you to be. Don't worry about being religious. Come as you are.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Lousy Day

I have been retaining water somewhat and then about once a week I will be up every half hour to pee. I lost 7 lb. between yesterday and today. I also felt lousy from lack of sleep.

It's hard to keep track of the weight when this goes on but I do know that we can be losing fat but the water weight is hiding it.

Just what I needed.

I am thankful that I am not so emotional about the scale anymore. In the past this would have really thrown me.

Small victories mean a lot.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

One Day

I just woke up one day and decided I didn't want to feel like this anymore, or ever again - so I changed. I had lots of excuses for not being able to change, but at the end of the day, they were excuses. Being able to change starts with your decision to change.

This was on facebook and came at a time when I had done exactly this. I didn't want to feel like this anymore. How many days have begun with resolve to do what I know to do and ended with a "what the hell" attitude? The world may never know.

How about you? Are you tired of feeling like a failure and being depressed over things you could change if you decided to change? We don't have to feel that way if we change what is causing it.

Let's change. Let's decide to change and then follow through.

I haven't been around for a while so I'll be surprised if this is read much but I hope it helps the ones who haven't blipped me from their list. I would blip me.

We are still working on the a-fib. My endocrinologist said that the blood thinner would be life long for a-fib. I didn't really want to hear that. The Garden/Home Tour went well. We had about 160 people who were very complimentary and appreciative. I've been somewhat of a slug since the pressure is off. I have done some canning and this is the time of year when I have to water, water, water.

Hope all of you are doing well.

Wednesday, April 2, 2014


Is a binge connected to a ritual? Norma stated something to this effect in her comment earlier and I have been thinking about it.

The ritual that leads up to a binge.

Rituals are often evident in binge eating; such as a specific pattern of purchasing/gathering large quantities of food, which is usually consumed in secrecy during binge episodes. 

Good information here.

and here 

I know it helped when I was still teaching to just sit down, go through the mail, and have something to drink when I got home because I was so anxious about eating and would often binge at that time.

There is also the brownie situation in an earlier post. Why did we bake them in the first place? What makes us think we can stop at one this time? Evidently we NEEDED the binge for some reason.

The ritual that keeps us in the binge.

While in the binge we must make sure to eat all the things we will have to give up once the binge is over. Until we accomplish that the binge needs to continue. This includes sweet food, salty food, and fast food.

The ritual that leads us back to sanity.

We are spent. The binge has accomplished its purpose whether we know what that purpose was or not. We have punished ourselves sufficiently and now are ready to start another ritual - - -

This ritual is more constructive however.

Monday, March 31, 2014

Can You Do This?

Throw out food.

My post about abstinence/temperance got me thinking about the situation where we have eaten a substantial amount of brownies and then feel like we should finish off the pan before anyone finds out we made them in the first place. Why isn't one of the choices to throw out the rest (after drizzling them with dish soap if necessary)? When did food become such an idol that we feel like we must eat it rather than throw it away? I get a tight feeling in my chest at the thought of throwing out food :-)

I have poured a bottle of wine down the sink because I knew if I didn't I would drink it all. I have told the story before about the Christmas candy, cookies, etc., I got at school one year. I stopped on the way home and threw it all in a trash can on Main Street. It never made it home. Sometimes it is easier to do things like this than it is at other times.

I haven't had young children around much for a while. My two nieces (Hailie - 10 and Madison - 3) have been staying all night on Monday nights because Madison goes to Bible Study Fellowship with me on Tuesday mornings. I have caught myself cleaning up their plates if they don't eat everything. Bad idea.

Are we really concerned about tossing out a few bites of food or do we just fool ourselves that those few bites don't count or that it's like wasting money if we buy food and then throw some of it out? Isn't it also wasting food if we eat it only to have it stored as fat?

It's another game - we get to eat something and it shows we are frugal and don't waste any food if we eat it rather than throw it out. It's a public service really. Being thrifty trumps being healthy.

How easy is it for you to throw out food? Do you have any strategies concerning this?

Friday, March 28, 2014

Abstinence or Temperance?

"Abstinence is as easy for you as temperance is difficult for me."  -unknown

I read this in a magazine while waiting for my doctor's appointment where I had the EKG - was diagnosed with A-fib and you know the rest of the story.

Sometimes abstinence is easier because there is no choice to be made. With temperance there is a choice.

There is a pan of brownies in the kitchen. What idiot made those? :-)

If we have made the lifestyle change of "I don't eat sugar" then it is much easier to stay out of them.

If we start with "should I or should I not" we might as well go ahead and dive in. We can also play the mind game of we will just have one (or two) and then of course we have to straighten up the edges (those bites don't count). We then might just have to eat the whole pan in order to hide it from the family that we ate several of them. We had good intentions of temperance at the outset but that was just a game we play to eat some brownies.

We don't have this trouble with the bowl of fruit in the middle of the table (you know - where the brownies used to be). We don't have trouble with the fresh vegetables. How many times have we felt like we had to finish off a bowl of salad before anybody found out?

Having no choice (abstinence) is the way to go don't you think?

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Are We Fat Rats or Slim Rats?

So what? This is my answer to articles such as this.

We still have to play the hand we are dealt. I could see myself in the past reading something like this and thinking, "Aha!"  Just what I thought. It's not my fault after all. I guess these studies serve some purpose but I am still on the side of personal responsibility and accountability. We can use this information however we choose - to validate whichever "rat" we are. I remember reading an observation made by some people watching children during recess. The slimmer students moved more during recess while eating about the same amount as the overweight students. Duh.

We are getting to the bottom of my issues with blood pressure and thyroid. I went to the doctor not too long ago and was given hydrochlorothiazide - a diuretic. Well, I swelled up, had leg cramps at night, racing heart, and was very weak - couldn't keep up at my exercise classes and didn't even feel like going. I stopped taking it. I told the doctor and they said to get right in there. He tried to tell me since hydro-- was a diuretic that wasn't the cause of all this - my skin was really tight on my feet and ankles from the swelling. I told him that was the only thing that had changed. So I was given another BP med. The lower number on my BP reading was around 100 most of the time. My heart rate was so high (156 last Saturday) that I had double vision for a time. My heart rate was consistently over 100 all weekend. I was dangerously close to a stroke.

Yesterday I went back to the doctor and he did an EKG and discovered I was in atrial fibrillation. I was kind of relieved to find out what the problem was so we knew what to treat. I am now on yet another BP med. to slow my heart rate and the generic of Coumadin (blood thinner) to protect me from a stroke. Hopefully this will get my heart back in rhythm or we have to have a cardiologist do something. I may have to go back to work after all. I go back Monday for a Pro-Time check (did I get that spelled correctly?) and will go back to the doctor in a month for a follow-up.

I read up on a-fib and found on the list of causes high blood pressure and thyroid issues - that's me.

I haven't been blogging because all this has caused a weight gain - I lost 8 lb. within just a few days between doctor visits - which means I gained that and more. I also haven't had much energy. This weight thing really messes with my head. Even if we know the reason for the gain it is disturbing. At the beginning of the year I was so excited and was going to get to goal weight. I am going to have to get this heart thing resolved before that can happen.

Hope all of you are well.

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Taking A Break

I am going to be on hiatus for a time. Be back one of these days! Take care.